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  • Little Red http://rjhixv.wordpress.com/

    The inner workings of the mind of a clinically crazy twenty something year old ginger ninja stuck in the wrong time and wrong place

LATEST ARTICLES ( 101 )

  • Blue Eyes, Red Flame

    it wasn’t fair that I met you after himit was like a cruel prank that taught me the ones you desire the most are often the closest yet farthest awaythe second m... Read more

    Posted on 19 February 2022 SELF EXPRESSION
  • I Was Wrong

    I used to think when it would happen, it would be a deafening desire and an all consuming want that overwhelmed my sensesI used to think I knew what it was... Read more

    Posted on 06 October 2021 SELF EXPRESSION
  • Done Being The Bad Guy

    Today has been a tough day for me; mentally and emotionally. I feel so drained and so absolutely consumed by the tears that I couldn’t stop from falling. Read more

    Posted on 23 October 2020 SELF EXPRESSION
  • The Time Has Come

    A few years ago, I was playing a card game with my cousins, husband and brother that put the dealer in morally ambiguous situations and required the other... Read more

    Posted on 19 August 2020 SELF EXPRESSION
  • When Does It Stop

    Do you ever reach a point in life, where you wonder if it’s ever going to really change ? If you’re ever really going to awaken to a day when you find that... Read more

    Posted on 25 February 2020 SELF EXPRESSION
  • My Dear Future

    ,Today was the first day I truly cried over you, or rather by the constant reminder that you are still somewhere in the distant future, and not growing warm,... Read more

    Posted on 09 November 2019 SELF EXPRESSION
  • Here’s Some Advice

    The funny thing about advice is that when I give it, I give it whole heartedly and genuinely believing in it.  I wear my heart on my sleeve but also am very ope... Read more

    Posted on 25 June 2019 SELF EXPRESSION
  • 1 Year Ago

    One year ago today, I made a decision that impacted my life forever.  The decision was to put myself first, and finally get help for a plethora of issues that... Read more

    Posted on 01 May 2019 SELF EXPRESSION
  • Fear Or Hope

    I was watching Black Klansman with my brother and husband last night when I was brought back to a quote which I first heard this time last year. Read more

    Posted on 29 December 2018 SELF EXPRESSION
  • I Am A Survivor

    Survivor

    Last week, on October 29th, it was Blue Knot day.  What is Blue Knot day?  Well, it’s a day for recognition to adult survivors of childhood trauma and abuse. ... Read more

    Posted on 04 November 2018 SELF EXPRESSION
  • Toxicity

    Toxicity

    tBefore i delve too far, I’ve actually been writing a fork tonne (Good Place reference) lately, because I had an epiphany one night, probably in the shower,... Read more

    Posted on 22 October 2018 SELF EXPRESSION
  • Just A Moment

    I’m sorry, I’m having a moment.When I was in hospital Demi Lovato released her song, “Sober” and it resonated with me in ways I couldn’t explain. Read more

    Posted on 07 August 2018 SELF EXPRESSION
  • Before You Ask…

    The answer is yes, I will be a sober bride at my wedding in 2 months time.It’s been a long time since I wrote something I felt comfortable enough to share. Read more

    Posted on 04 August 2018 SELF EXPRESSION
  • I Am Me. And She is Alright.

    When I was in my first two or three years of high school, I used to come home from school, crying, hating my pizza pimple face and orange mop hair. Read more

    Posted on 10 January 2017 SELF EXPRESSION
  • Ovaryacting

    I felt obliged to write this post because I often find words to be healing and helpful.  Right now, I think I need a whole lot of healing and help due to ongoin... Read more

    Posted on 10 November 2016 SELF EXPRESSION
  • Dear Little Sister

    I’ve been wanting to write this for a while now, because you’re at an age where I had made too many mistakes to keep track of. Read more

    Posted on 29 January 2016 SELF EXPRESSION
  • Letter to an Angel

    I think about you more than I ever admit I don’t know why, but I assume people wouldn’t understand … We weren’t best of friends Or extremely close In fact,... Read more

    Posted on 18 January 2016 SELF EXPRESSION
  • Thankyou and Goodbye.

    Thankyou Goodbye.

    One afternoon when I was 7, my mother and I were reversing out of the driveway, when we were stopped by my brothers best friends father.  He came over to our... Read more

    Posted on 15 January 2016 SELF EXPRESSION
  • Gone Are The Days

    of staying up late, listening to your lovelorn woes and reassuring you of your beauty, value and worth while munching on cheeseburgers. Read more

    Posted on 27 November 2015 SELF EXPRESSION
  • Enough Is Enough

    I feel like I need to speak out on behalf of the women,  children and even men who are effected by Domestic violence.Why?Because in our country, it seems that... Read more

    Posted on 10 September 2015 SELF EXPRESSION