To My Mom Who Made Me A Better Me

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With it being Mother’s Day and all I have been giving a lot of thought to my own mother.  She is a huge part of the stories which are written on my heart and she truly made me who I am today.  That’s what a mother is supposed to do, right?

But I would be lying if I didn’t tell you that our relationship has been strained over the years.  It is definitely not the relationship I want with my mother or I have chosen and it breaks my heart that we can’t find our way past this.

Because in spite of everything every day as I mother my own four children I am reminded of my mother.  I do hear her voice coming out of my mouth.  Sometimes I wonder, how would my mom have handled this situation if it were me?

My mom is the one who taught me how to advocate for my children’s education.  She was always there and she was fair.  She didn’t take me just at my word, but she also didn’t believe everything about me my teachers told her.  And because she was that fine example of an educationally minded parent I have been able to provide that same advocacy for my children and have found the courage to make the tough decisions because of what she taught me.

My mom, even while working full time, managed to cook delicious home cooked meals almost every night.  While also providing delicious home made treats as well.  I have been able to provide that for my children and bring them to the table with meals that they enjoy.

As my children get older and I begin to do more of the things that I remember doing with my mom (those special mother daughter times) I look back and remember those times I’ve had with my mother.  I think some day my daughters will be doing this with their daughters and I hope remembering our moments together bring a smile to their face while they are making memories with their own kids like it does mine.

Even though things are strained between me and my mom right now that doesn’t change the fact that she is a huge part of me every single day of my life.  I hope things improve sooner rather than later so we can continue to write our story, but in spite of everything I know how truly blessed I am to have had a mother who made me me and the mother that I am.  I couldn’t have done it without you mom!  I love you!