My bigger-than-me, ingenuous dream is to leave a mark in the 3D industry as the giants and pioneers did before…whether I could make it in 2 years, 40 or never is inside the black box subroutine RandomizeEverything() of the Life() equation I’ve written in C++ pseudo code😉
Jokes aside, I came to U.S to find a fertile ground to root and grow and so far all I’ve found are stones and no rain. Everywhere I look what I find is skepticism, closed doors, indiference, isolation, inertia and time wasted. Time, the only resource nobody has to spare, the real currency of the universe.
I would like to think is just the random sample I’m having now, that the future should be better and that good things can happen even on a monday. But no amount of wishful thinking, of goodwill, of justice can change the fact that the second term multiplying your efforts can still be terribly low or worse: zero.
More days than I would like to admit I’ve started to feel ashamed of my dreams and questioning if this journey is worth it.
Raul Fernandez
