This applies to a lot of things, in life and in blogging. I'm so fed up of my anxiety stopping me from doing things, so this year my main priority is to combat that! I want to do more things, with Abbie in general. Travel further afield, go away for a few days to stay with family, go to the beach, i've actually created a bucket list for us to do this year and i'm hoping to complete all 50 of them!
I've been wanting to drive for so long now, but it would really open up a new chapter for me, being able to take Abbie places, without having to rely on other people. It would mean we can both get out more which would benefit both Abbie and myself. I always pictured having Mother Daughter days with her, travelling out to the mall and having a cake and hot chocolate together before looking round some shops, now she's getting older it's definitely something she might start enjoying! I'm super motivated to get in the driving lessons and taking my test as soon as I can!
I want to take Abbie over to see some family in another country this year, which means my anxiety will really be pushed to the test, a busy airport, a super active 3 year old, a plane journey, waiting around, time changes, change in routine and different weather! But then I think about the whole positive side, Abbie exploring a different country, culture, people and the whole experience in general. I travelled a lot as a kid and really loved it all, playing on the beach, visiting new places and plane journeys! We will also create scrapbooks of things she finds on her way around, shells, stones, even little receipts and things during the holiday, I have so many memory boxes upstairs full of memories growing up, so hopefully Abbie will get into it too :)
Get Fit
My resolution in 2014 was to lose weight, I lost a whole 36lbs and have been maintaining that since, i've wavered around the 9 stone mark and have been super proud of keeping on top of it all! But for this year I am focusing on keeping fit, I will be starting the Kayla Itsines BBG, I'm not usually one to follow trends like those but the results i've seen on Instagram and online have been amazing. My figure isn't it's best, in fact it's far from it, i'm not insecure about it as such but I would love to be able to wear a bikini or at least look good in a swimsuit! I'm yet to see a transformation on someone with a body that looks like mine, so I can't wait to see exactly how it'll change.
I'm not looking for a perfect body, because I know it's never going to happen for me, but I know I can look a hell of a lot better, as the saying goes "Strive for progress, not perfection", having spent my whole teenage life doing just the opposite, despite having a bloody good figure, and suffering from eating disorders. I'm now set on improving and increasing my confidence!
Be a Better Person
I know this is a bit of a cliche, but it's something I really want to emphasise, i'm not a horrible person or anything, but there are things I need to change and things I need to work on. As a Mother I always want to be better, and sometimes I'm just not the best I should be, and whilst it's ok to have off days, I want to just practice having things like, more patience, more play time together and taking my first point above, doing more things with her! I also want to become 'Jess' again, just a little bit. I'm very much a Mother and it's my favourite thing in the world, but I have realised I have forgotten about myself in the process. My plan is to see friends more, and try and get some of my life before Abbie back. She is always my number 1 priority but after over 3 years, I'd like to find myself again!
