I do not trust anyone to keep me safe.
As a child your parents are supposed to instill basic trust within you. When I was little no one was safe and no one protected me. I was all alone… I have a paranoia that if I spend the night with friends they are going to let in strangers which is my biggest fear. Strange men in my house… I was just a little girl…
I feel really scared at night
…I don’t know what to do when my doors won’t lock
When my fortress of protection is knocked down
Sometimes I wonder why God did not keep me safe for years…
I could not escape and I don’t know how to trust anyone to keep me safe anymore
I feel on the edge
I am terrified to sleep
When I do sleep I have strange nightmares of zombies, giants and insects…
I want to learn to trust again
I want to feel safe
I want to rest
Stay strong, you are not alone <3"><3"><3
xoxo
