I was trying to be so much better about blogging. I was enjoying it again. I was enjoying having a creative outlet back. But then, I got overwhelmed. I didn’t know what to write. I wasn’t happy with the content I was writing. I wasn’t happy that the blog wasn’t getting views. And I was focusing too much on trying to make this blog into a paid venture.
So I took a step back to remind myself why I started this blog in the first place. I didn’t start it to make money. I didn’t start it to become a famous blogger. I started it to write; to have a place to chronicle my life. To write about my successes, my thoughts, my journeys, my health and pretty much anything that came to mind.
Instead, I started blogging about things that I thought would make for good content. Because that’s what all the sites told me to do. And in doing so, I started to lose my blogger identity again. The content I was writing was not making me happy. Sure, some of the pieces were honest and true to my writing. But others, were just to fill the blog-space. To have content continuing to flow.
I started focusing too much on how I can get my blog out there. I started focusing on that because I wanted to have the blog become a source of income. Instead of focusing on the blog as a place of creativity. I needed to step back and remind myself that this blog will probably never be a source of income. And I’ll probably never be a well-known blogger, and that’s okay. Because that is not what I set out to do.
So instead of continuing to write content that I wasn’t happy with, I stopped writing altogether. If I didn’t have the motivation and inspiration to write, then no post was going to be published. I needed a breather. I needed to remind myself that I have this blog my little space on the web to write when I want too. No one is expecting me to publish a daily post. No one is anxiously waiting for a notification of a new post to arrive in their e-mail or on BlogLovin’.
So today, I’m not promising anything. I’m not promising that I’ll be better about writing. I’m not promising that you will see a new post everyday or even ever week. But what I can promise you is that this blog will represent me, as a blogger and as a person. You won’t see anymore ads. My sidebar won’t be nearly as cluttered. My writing will be honest and who I am. Not just content to fill the blank space.
If you’re interested in following my daily adventures, follow me on Instagram @itseryne. It’s like a mini-blog, and I post more about my life. If you’re not interested in my daily life, and you’re just here to hear what I have to say on occasion, then hang tight. You’ll start to see more posts… at least a little bit more often.
So today, after 23 days, I’m blogging again. But I can’t tell you when the next post will be. But I can tell you it will be when I find the inspiration and need to write.
