I grew up in a home where God was strongly acknowledged.
I was raised by a mother who always believed in God. She grew up attending church as a child and had a love for God.
My mother’s side of the family were strong believers in God. They maintained faith and included God within their lives.
It was not about religion, but having a relationship with God.
My mother introduced me to God at an early age. From the start, everything came naturally. I readily believed and knew God and his story was real, yet I did not fully understand everything as I was still very young.
I was very spiritual, so I already had a connection to God. Certain members of my family were innately spiritual with gifts of the spirit.
There was a time I was consistently angry at God. I was frustrated at circumstances that were not my doing but done unto me and my mother during childhood on up by jealous/envious undesirables and etc….
In addition to other particular unsavory situations in life, I doubted God’s character and felt I could not trust him even though I had seen him do incredible, wonderful things in my life. I never doubted what God could do, but I doubted his goodness and motives/intentions.
God never punished or stopped blessing me when I kept my distance from him. My positive lifestyle did not change, but my attitude toward God and who I wanted to follow did for a while.
Instead of showing anger toward me, God approached me with gentleness and understanding of my misunderstanding of him.
God invited me to come to know him in a deeper and more transparent way than before.
He wanted me to know the real him, not through those who profess him only to show something different, not by misinterpretation- but through my past experiences of faith and what he has done for me and my family before.
By what he has done for me in the present. By what his word says and how his word acts and directs within my life.
God is walking with me every step of the way on my journey here as he promised and will take his time continuing to guide and provide with his ultimate divinity.
