Yesterday morning was a stumbling day. I made my choices and then I had to live with them. In all reality, a disagreement with someone I loved left me feeling down. I didn't run before work as I was told that doing so was "harming" my family. I know the words stated weren't meant to come out that way. I know it isn't true but it still hurt. I didn't run before work and it left me feeling grouchy and trust me, THAT is not good for my family. A happy strong mommy is good. A frustrated, grouchy mommy...not so much. It took me a bit to realize I was making my choices and I had to turn them around. I had to choose to be happy with where I was and see the blessings in my life. I knew I would run later even if it meant at home on my incline treadmill that doesn't seem to give me optimal training. But I am blessed to be able to do that.
And blessings do surround you once you open your eyes and look for the good. It is always there hiding even when you are feeling grouchy. Like this note I pulled out of my lunch bag yesterday morning. In the middle of my gloomiest moment I pulled out this note that darling daughter made me. Yes, I pulled it out at breakfast time, not lunch, and it made me smile.
Oh, oh, I love, love you. You are my best friend.And what about this poem that darling daughter wrote me just a couple of days earlier? Isn't that a precious blessing.
Dear oh dear. What have you have. I am fun but you like you. Oh come with me. I love you. I do love you. I like what you have. You are my dear. I like you. This is my heart you see. I love.I asked her if she was learning about poetry in school. She said no, just that her and her friend chose to sit down and see how much they could write during indoor recess as it was raining outside. It makes me heart melt for so many reasons.
Blessings. They even extend beyond the joy of my life - my daughter.
The other day I got an email alert from FedEx saying a package was to be delivered from Amazon. Hmmm....I hadn't ordered anything. I ignored it and thought maybe it was a technical glitch and was meant for the Amazon package I received a week or so ago...but did that come via FedEx? Anyhow, the thought went to the wayside until darling daughter and I came home yesterday, rounded the corner, and stopped dead in our tracks looking at a big brown box. What?!
We didn't even make it into the house since curiosity was killing these two cats and we opened the box right then and there and inside the big box was a smaller box, darn Amazon packaging sometimes, and the proverbial light bulb went off. Happy Mommy dance!
About a month ago I got a reward with my Yoga Studio app and Kiip Rewards. Okay, there are many rewards if you opt in to them but some are to things I don't need, diapers, and some I just haven't taken advantage of, The Honest Company, and some I am just no so sure of, Julep beauty stuff. But this reward I jumped on - a free yoga mat? Yes please! Darling daughter and I could stop fighting over the one we own. It is just an expression, we don't really fight.
The mat I received was beyond amazing and more than I ever imagined for a free mat. I was expecting something thin and small like I currently own but this one is deluxe! It comes with a strap that holds the mat closed too. And it is plush and long! I am not the tallest person around but it is nice to get my 5'2" body on the mat during corpse pose and have some leeway.But there is another bigger blessing I want to share with you today, I am blessed to be alive. Yes, we can all say that each and every day but to me it has deeper meaning. I am adopted. Some can say I was an unwanted pregnancy and even though that may be the case, and most likely was, I know my adoptive parents very much wanted me. I know my biological mom very much wanted the best for me. I am touched she had the courage to have me and give me up for adoption and I am blessed to be alive.
I have a purpose to serve in my life. We all do. And I feel strongly my purpose is to tell my story, to be honest, and to do my very best to make good choices each day, to see the blessings in my life, and to pay it forward to others.
I am blessed to have all of you in my life as well. Thank you for being you and most importantly, thank you for stopping by, reading my blog, sharing your thoughts, and for being alive!
Daily Gratitude: I am thankful for each breath of air I take.
Daily Affirmation: I am good.
