I am...
...no longer sure if I wish to drown myself in love, vodka or the sea.
...nonstop writing. HA! Yeah, not here as you can tell. It's been hard to juggle this place and my other love so this place has been neglected. Not to mention there's really not much newsworthy going on. Just busy, busy and more busy.
...starting realize that I have a coffee mug addiction. I like coffee mugs not to forget the stuff you put in them but that's just silly, because you all know that. Over the years, at least the ones I've spent with Bobby, I've made it a habit to buy mugs wherever we go. I like being able to wake up in the morning, open my cupboard full of mugs and choose a mug. I'll pick up a mug and remember the memories of the place I got it at. Kind of cool. But really who am I kidding, I buy them anyways. Like the one that's pictured up top I got at Wegmans while we were grocery shopping. Now grocery shopping is always an adventure and it's sort of a mini date for Bobby and I but I really didn't buy it for the memory. I bought it because I couldn't put it back on the shelf. And I plan to buy all the colors that they have because they are stackable and I just can't get the thought of having a rainbow of mugs stacked on my countertop out of my mind. So there's that.
...trying not to let stress get to me. Lately I feel like things have been happening one after another. One stressful thing ends and another starts right back up. However, I'm super stubborn and would never let anything defeat me. So I guess that's a good thing, right?
...nearing my 25th birthday and I'm finding that I'm very excited about it. Don't ask me why because I don't know. I think it's because I know that my 25th year is going to be full of lots of beautiful things. We'll be moving and starting anew. I'll start to be able to make up for lost time with my family and friends. And I hope to be able to finally start on my dream. A dream, because that's all it's been for a long time now. Many things will happen and many more challenges will surface but I'm over the moon about it! Plus there's gifts. Boy oh boy!
...still in shock about Sebastian turning 5! Where has the time gone? We had a party for him last Saturday and it was a blast. We had it at a family fun center full of arcade games, a huge jungle gym, rides and go carts. He invited one of his best pals as well as his cousins. Sebastian was very spoiled with some wonderful gifts. Monday when we pulled up to school he got out of the car and motioned with his little hands
at his body and said to me Mom, look, I'm a big kid. Before I melted into a puddle, I nodded and told him he is the biggest kid ever. He smiled and walked off. It's all just so amazing....growing my hair back out. Need a change. It's at this weird in-between stage that is driving me crazy. I almost feel like I want to grow it out as long as I can from now until I start hair school just so I can do something off the wall crazy to it when I finally start school. What do you think? Yeah. That sounds about right.
...currently putting hot sauce on everything I eat. What's up with that? I don't know but I do know I want everything I eat super spicy all the time. It's weird.
...giddy about an early birthday present that I bought myself.
...finding comfort in the evening hours. I've never been a night owl. That's always been a difference between Bobby and I. He could always stay up into the wee hours of the night were as I just could bring myself to do it. And then on the other hand I'm the ultimate morning person and he is the worst. I've always tried to help him become a better morning person and he would always try to coax me to stay up later to watch one more movie. Now, I don't really know the cause of it but I've become quite a night owl. I can stay up in the wee hours of the night and still be alright and I find comfort in it. Oh, you thought I was going to say Bobby was now magically a morning person. Umm. No that will never happen. And if it does I'm sure the world world will end.
...gaining a lot of perspective on all the different kinds of people in this world. The more time I spend on this Earth the more knowledge I gain about who people are and why they do the things they do. Recently my eyes were opened to how power/money hungry people can be and usually they hide it really well. They say that they care about what they do but their words don't seem to match their actions. These people need to be taught lessons. I wish I could be that person to knock some sense into them. Hey, a girl can dream!
...thankful for this life I live and always looking forward. That's all you can do.
xoxo.