The Older I Get… The more I realize:
The Heart Matters.
I am realizing that I cannot do nothing genuine, fulfilling and kind… unless I first consider my heart.
Recently I was surprised – in prayer, to learn something about my soul. I really don’t know a lot of things, about myself and the more I am in close relationship with God, my Creator, I tend to find I know more, I glean from Gods friendship, and I grow. I learn more about who I am authentically. And today, I was here:
- i am a very sensitive person.
- i am one who loves to marvel in thought life, in revelations, in memories, … in meaning.
- i am one who stands in awe of what God has done in my life over the past 48 years.
- i am one who has to continue to daily allow God to do heart surgery on me, because my heart, can easily go astray.
- i learned am ever so concerned about the heart of God’s people.
My grandmother’s backyard in LaGrange, GA
Recently, I found out a friend of mine was dying.
This friend is so close to my being.. when I was going through a really hard time and trying to find myself and what I really stood for, he was there. He wasn’t a boyfriend, he was just a friend to call me and to talk. Oh, how he loved to talk! And boy, it was something, because he made me laugh so much!
I was trying to figure out how to move on from a relationship I thought would last. ( It was a first love kind of thing…) And I was like, completely devastated. And he knew it. He would reason with me, cry with me, help me to value hings about life and people, help me to understand men, he would share his ‘heart breaks’ with me, and he would give me the funniest things to laugh about that it really would rest my soul to hear him talk. It really bothers me, that I cannot talk to him, because he is in ICU.
You never see friends coming to this.
I guess this is the beginning of getting older… you begin to lose your peers.
I am not sure I am ready.
So… the Heart matters.
Friends are one of those heart matter issues, and because of friendships and connection this morning -and how we silently sometimes fall into confusion and misunderstanding about life, and spirit and God… I have decided to begin a hashtag movement called: #TheHeartMatters4Us . I am excited about it , because it will be simple: a song, a blog post, a thought, a small statement or but always add a “breath prayer”...for people to sort of get through the day. when we have a loved one that is suffering, or we are suffering and find it hard to connect with ourselves, ,we can always reconnect again to our Creator. And I dedicate this ministry of thought life, #TheHeartMatters4Us – to my friend, Kelvin. *(Love you , boy!)
Love you my friends, always. Thanks for helping me through the hard times.