YesterdayI met the boy for the second timeI met him in the villageAnd we went back to his placeAs his dog had puppiesAnd I really wanted to see themI felt really shadyBecause I had to lie to my mother about where I was goingAs I knew she would worry if I told her where I was really goingI said I was going to meet a girlfriendAlthough I think she knew something was upAs she kept telling me to be careful when I went out
So I met the boy at one And we headed out to his place He had two dogs tooAnd the puppies were just adorableWe just watched them for agesWe didn't do muchHad tea And chatted for a few hours I felt more comfortable than I did the first time I met himHis house mate was there too part of the time
Before I went out to his houseI told him I had to babysit at fiveDo I had a reason to leave if I needed toBut really I could have stayed there all dayWe talked about everything and anythingIt was easyI think we both felt comfortableThe longer I was thereThe more I felt like we were just friendsHe didn't try to jump me or anything I was glad of that
At about fiveI said I had better go So the boy dropped me back down to my carThen came another awkward goodbyeSo I gave him a hugAnd we left it at that
I had told my sister where I was goingShe had texted me a couple of times while I was outTo make sure I was okAnd I wasI didn't feel uncomfortable or unsafe or anything like that
I arrived home And went straight to talk to my sisterI told her about my dayAnd that ideas pretty sure we were just friendsShe told me that I should tell my mom about seeing himSo I decided that I would
I changed my clothesMade a cup of teaAnd joined my mother in the kitchenI sat beside herAnd asked if I could speak to herShe said of courseI told her I had something to tell herHer face tensedAnd I could see she was bracing herself'I'm back in contact with someone' I said'Who?' She askedI told her whoAs I said his nameHer whole face seemed to dropShe put her hand over her eyesAnd I thought she was going to start cryingShe said nothing for a minuteI waited She looked at me And in no uncertain terms said'Ruby, you know how I feel about him and all of that crowd' She said that she always got a bad feeling about the boyAnd that he was 'menacing'She continued that I had worked so hard to get where I amAnd that I was putting my recovery and my life in jeopardyShe really had a very strong reaction upon hearing the boys nameShe seemed angry even
I can understand why she had this reactionI used to use with this guyAnd I know my family are still terrified that I could relapseMy mother said that the boy is not welcome near our houseAnd she would prefer that I didn't see himI told her that I am an adultAnd that I am mature enough to make my own decisionsAnd I amI have to sayI don't get a bad feeling off the boyI really like himBut I do understand where my mother is coming from
So I guess it will be tricky to see him nowMy family will be on high alertI'm not sure how to handle thisDo I respect my mothers wishes and stay away?Or do I do my own thingAnd continue to see him?As of yetI really don't know
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