I decided to take photos of the clothes firstI laid them out carefully on the bed And snapped awayThey looked greatA pair of blue cropped Brakeburn trousersA cream and blue Brakeburn t-shirtAnd my new Fat Face sandals
Then I tried the clothes onTo take some more photosBut somehow Instead of the clothes making me look niceI seemed to make the clothes look horribleMy top half seems to be disproportionately bigger than my bottom halfMy arms looked flabbyMy middle looked like someone in their second trimester of pregnancyMy legs?Well the less said about them the betterEven my feetThey seemed to make the dainty little sandals look grotesqueI couldn't even take one photoI just threw my phone on to the bedAnd changed in to a tracksuit
I know what you are thinking This girl has an eating disorderOf course she sees herself through a warped perceptionI wish that were trueI know part of the illness is that we are especially harsh on ourselvesAnd possibly don't see the truth when we look in the mirrorI get that I doBut I really do think that I am seeing myself in a realistic wayI really am not physically very nice to look at
This makes me worry about the approaching summer seasonAs the sun forces me to peel off layer after layer Until all that is left is vast white flesh Come back winterAll is forgiven!
Here are the photos of said clothes