Hope you are all well. I have wanted to write this post for a little while but didn't really know where to start. My confidence and self esteem had always been really low. I have always been a slightly larger girl and I used to feel really self conscious.
I was never bullied about my size or anything yet I still felt really conscious about my size.
I never fitted the size that went with my age, when I was 14 is aged 16 clothes and all my friends were wearing smaller clothes. I hated going shopping with friends I would never buy any clothes when with them because I didn't want them to know my size.
It was always when I looked at pictures and I was one of the bigger ones and I used to get quite upset. I remember once ages about 14 bursting into tears in a changing room because I couldn't fit into a top. It did upset me when I was growing because as I grew in height and in the bust i went up a size like everyone else except I didn't want to go up a size.
"Don't Shy away Embrace it"
In the last couple of years I have grown to accept my body and size. It's taken time but being able to choose clothes that fit your shape and size is a must. As my mom says to me it doesn't matter what size the clothes are as long as they fit, look gorgeous and you feel confident in them the size is just a number.I also remember at about age 14-15 refusing to buy any clothes bigger than a 12...that was a problem as i didn't fit any size 12s! my mom used to cut the label off so I wouldn't know the size! The size is just a number, it doesn't matter what size you are from a 6 to size 24 everyone will have something that they feel self conscious about or don't like about their body but we have to accept our bodies. Our bodies are what makes us, us.
I am a size 16 I have a big bust, go slightly in at the waist and my shoulders and hips are wide but in line... So I'm not an apple , I'm not a pear and I'm not an hourglass.. Anyone know what shape I am?! Finding clothes that flatter you is essential even if it means going one size bigger if you feel confident and gorgeous in it then that all that matters.
Embracing my body and being more confident helped me to be able to do things I want to do, simple things like wearing a skirt.. Now that's all I want to wear! Last year I also joined the school choir and sang in the Easter, summer and remembrance performance and met one of my best friends and friend for life. You will be surprised at what opportunities it will bring just increasing your self confidence whether its your weight or that freckle or your hair or height or whatever it may be accept it, embrace it and love it, it will make your life much easier.
I suppose now I ignore what size I am to an extent. I avoid comparing my size to others and just be like yeah I'm a 16 I don't care what you are. I feel way more confident in myself just by accepting who I am. I have the odd few days where I'm like blah... I wanna be a size 8 and have long wavy hair but that's never going to happen cause my hair is dead straight!! I have tried the gym, diets but now I'm just going to make the most of my body and you should too.I hope this has helped someone to feel that their not the only one to feel like this and that you need to embrace your body and be positive about it. If you ever need a chat about this or anything else email me shimmerofpink@yahoo.co.uk I'm always here to listen and to help where I can or provide information about where you can get advice and information.Laura x