Seems like forever since I sat down and wrote. Things have been a bit weird for me lately and I just haven’t had the gumption to sit at the computer and put it into words. Not sure I can even do it now.
We continue to recover Matthew from autism. He is doing really well. Maybe I shouldn’t say “from autism” any more as he certainly no longer meets the DSM-IV criteria of autism. I think we are now recovering him from ADD/ADHD, according to the DSM-IV this is a more likely diagnosis now. I will certainly take the progress, but eventually I want to not be “recovering” him from anything.
I guess I have done it again, I have some how alienated a friend. Well, she wasn’t quite a friend, but she was more than an acquaintance. We don’t agree on what autism is, or how to treat it – actually on even if it should be treated. Oddly I feel rather apathetic to this loss. I think with the adrenal fatigue and utter exhaustion that comes with it, I have no energy to give to this loss, and therefore no feelings toward it. I try to conjure in my mind and my heart a response to her, but I can’t be mean or angry towards her. I also can’t say she is right. The best I can offer is the question if we need to have the same beliefs to be friends. But even that seems like very little so right now I offer nothing.
The kids are home from school and we are readdressing their activities. Matthew and Nico are now taking music lessons together. Matthew has been playing the piano for a little while, and Nico has now picked up the guitar. I have always pictured him as a musician. Who knows if I am right or not.
Speaking of my adrenal fatigue, my acupuncturist says I am so depleted he has no idea how I function at all. I told him I am a SuperMom and we must continue on. He is treating me with his big guns and fully believes I will be back to my old self. I hope so, as this has been extremely taxing. I want to sleep all the time.
Lastly I have been trying to get into watercolor painting. I love it. I am so excited to get my art back. So where have you been this summer?