As you may knowI did a job interview a few months agoI was unsuccessful in the position in questionBut they did offer me another jobWorking in the holiday centre From May - September I gladly accepted the offer Grateful for any type of work As jobs are pretty scarce around here at the moment I did have a few obstacles in my way thoughThere is a course I want to doAnd also there is the question of my disability benefit I can legally work up to 20 hours a weekAnd still keep all of my benefitAny hours after that My benefit is cut on a sliding scale It's really difficult to know what to doAnd everyone has an opinionSome think I should just work the 20 hours Some think I should forget about the job and do the courseAnd some think I should forget about the disability benefit And take as many hours as I canIt's a tricky one I know that once I take myself off disability It will be nigh on impossible to get it back if I need it I guess it's a security blanket But at some pointI'm going to have to grow up and let it go I want to work I do I guess it's a confidence thing I haven't worked And worked for someone in a long time My last job was teaching kids dance I stopped because I lost my confidence And just couldn't do it anymore I've never really regained it after that What I will soI don't know yet But it's nice to have options It wasn't too long ago That I had no options No courseNo job First world problems I guess But I do think work will be good for me For my self esteem Confidence Feeling that I am contributing And being a productive member of society I guess I will have to make a decision soonAnd I will do what is right for me I'm just not sure which way to go....