I have hoped my entire life that this was not the case...that if I just worked hard enough..I could control things...
Control my life with...children,a husband, family...myself...
Now I have to face my fears...I cannot.
who I desperately love
are all of another age...An age where I am no longer in control...
An age where their lives are pretty much their own...
And I must realize I can no longer protect them...
all of the time.
thus making his own decisions.I am left with realizing I can only let him go...With LOVE.
I must accept myself.
Accept...I will never be perfect.That fear and anxiety will always be a constant companion.That the fact that I feel so intensely....my life always be challenging...
I must accept my own aging...and
not only make peace with it...but search for the true gifts aging can bring.
I must accept that I can not outrun my pain and fear and anxiety...but I need to acknowledge it's presence...to accept there will be always the bitter with the sweet.
I say this...so you know when you visit my blog...it is always about the bitter and the sweet...
it's just that the sweet is so much prettier to see...
and
if we look hard...
we can uncover so much sweet.
as always my friends
I wish you love and joy
as you style your life