And so we are on to the letter EE for me Is eatingEating is mandatory if you want to liveIf you want to have energyIf you want to workPlay Work out You have to eat if you want the systems in your body to workAnd work wellIf you want to have healthy nails, skin and hairWithout eating Our bodies pretty quickly give upAnd we die of starvation and dehydration Eating and feeding are one of the first things we learn in life As a baby Feeding is everything But for those of us with eating disorders Eating can be a tricky business Whether you have anorexia Bulimia ESNOSThe art of food and eating can be a mine field
I love my food I really love my foodI don't rightly believe anyone who says that they don't enjoy their foodFood and eating are one of life's great pleasuresIt brings us together To celebrate To partyTo mourn To chat To put the world to right over a cuppa and a slice of cakeBut my relationship with food has been rocky to say the least I love it And hate it in equal amounts At times over the years Food has been my nemesis I denied myself food Starved my body and mind I stuffed it with food Then promptly threw it all up I over exercised my body with not enough food I skipped family occasions becsuse I didn't want to eat I ate out of a binI ate food straight out of the freezerI stole food from my familyFrom my house mates From shops and super markets Food drove me to the brink of insanity
Now 15 years down the ED road I have made a kind of peace with food I've had toI don't hate my food anymore I don't hate eating I don't battle with food the way I used toNow I try to eat three meals and snacks a dayI dont deny myself what I want I don't make my body purge as much as I used to I enjoy eating now I sit at the table now I used to eat in front of the TVMindlessly shoving food in to my mouth Now I take my timeChat with my family It's a social thing also
One of the most important things in ED recovery Is to keep eating Even when you don't toWhen you don't feel like it When you are full It is so important to eat And keep it down of course Because once you start skipping meals and snacks It is a slippery road back down the rabbit holeSo I do itI eat Because I want to be wellTo be healthy To have energy I eat because for the first time in a long timeI want to live Because I now I can see they my life is worth living That there is life after an EDAnd I do have a chance of happiness as well as health Right Speaking of eating I am off to have a ham toastie with relishLip smacking good.....!