I feel like I have had a realWriter's Blockhere on my blogfor just over a year now.
Once I completed my year of posts aboutMarriage Infidelitylast JanuaryI feel like I was holding my breath for a whilemaking sure things really were good.
And they definitely aregreat between Jeff and I now.
But life being lifehas thrown us another huge curve ball.One of those 'never thought that would'happen to us'situations.
Nothing that we won't recover frombut shocking and full of uncertainty all the same.
Proving once againthe only certainty in lifeno matter how much I hate to acknowledge it is Change.
Once againI will look for every opportunity to learn the lessonsthe situation has to teach.
I will continue to Grow My Soulso I can later Share What I have learned.There is a certain beautyin the realizationlife has ups and downsandfinding the inner peace in the realizationthat change is inevitable.
But we can learn and practice Resilience so that we can still Thriveduring the process.
All that being saidI wouldn't be transparentif I didn't admit some days are harder and much more frustrating
than others.
I decided at the beginning of this yearI really wanted to get my design business up and running againthis year.
So staying focused on my own goalsunder the umbrella of uncertaintysome days can be a challenge.
My life right now feels like a rollercoaster.
And I have realizedthat's OK.
I have learned to be Resilient and Strongthese last two years.
And I know on really
frustrating daysit's OK to take a
Mental Health Daya cornerstone of
Self Care.
Yesterday was a crazy frustrating day.One of those days that felt like a laundry list of things going wrong.
But I handled it.
By the afternoonI realized there was no way I was going to be productiveno matter how hard I tried.
So I opted to leave my studio for
a hot bubblebath sparkling waterand went to bed with my TV remote.I watched mindless TVuntil bedtime.
AndI woke up Fresh with my usual daily Gratitude.
Instead of feeling bad that I didn't accomplish my list for the dayI actuallyCongratulated Myself.
I am happy I didn't fall back on some of my usual ways I deal with frustration, hurt, fear or disappointment.
I didn't go out and spend moneyto buy myself relief.
I didn't over eat or drinkto dull the pain.
I didn't lash out at anyonein an attempt to avoid my own anger.
I simply went to bed.
And even more than thatA Renewed Spirit.
A feeling of hope.
At least for today.
As always my friends
I wish you love and joyas you style your life