I really attempted to blog today, but I didn’t get around to it. I was reading a message on courage, today, and it took a long time to get my reading done, for some reason. Today, I read with such a depth, it really intrigues me. Everything I read means something. I apply it ALL to my life.
I feel as if this season of my life has been one of the hardest. I have had to use ALL OF MY COURAGE. But I feel so strong. So resilient. I feel as if courage is making me strong. Giving me strength I didn’t really ask for.
What happens when you use all of your courage, and you are disappointed? I don’t know. I guess you just keep believing, and using it even more. You just dig deeper. Because deep down inside of us is a well. I believe some place down in the recesses of our souls, is a place where there is a reservoir of courage. A deep, intense, place of holy courage… inside of our souls. And it’s such an unfamiliar place. And if we push ourselves and souls to ‘get there’ we will find we are stronger than we ever imagined.
Sometimes I look inside of myself and wonder how I am ” myself”… still today, even. Turns out, when I looks inside, I really am NOT myself, anymore. I am having His image gleam on the inside and outside of me. I don’t feel as if I am getting older… I feel more wiser. I don’t feel as age is getting the best of me, I feel smarter. I don’t feel as if I am missing out on life, I feel as I am grasping every opportunity to be… and I feel whole. Because my Creator lives in me. For this very reason, I feel so blessed, so honored to be who I am, and for Him to use me for His work. Lately His work has involved helping people use their stories to tell even greater stories, and … getting paid for it.
What a blessing…’
Selah.
On a side note… today, I went to the courthouse. I didn’t have any appointment there, at least I didn’t think… but justice met me, there. I believe I had an appointment with my destiny. A reminder of where I could have been. Had not grace captured me, and set me in a large place.
But I really like this version of the scripture:
“ In my trouble I called upon the Lord: and the Lord heard me, and enlarged me. “
~ Psalm 118:5