It's December 8th today.Deep into our Christmas season.I can't believe it's been over a week since I've been heretime seems to be speeding by this year.
And it all looks so different this yearmaybe I haven't even been here all the way.
Life is changing so muchand never is it more evident thanunder the glare of Christmas memorieswhere old traditions are now done new ways.
After over two decades of Christmas's done deeply in child rearing yearsI guess I was too busyto ever think forwardto a timewhere it was back to Jeff and I.
This first week of the Christmas seasonflew by alreadyin prepping for the engagement partywhich was wonderful ...
A true celebration of two livescoming togetherinto the beginningsof a new family.
With all of the promise of new love and new traditions.
There seems to be a continualletting goin parenting.
A stepping backand watchingwith a silent bated breathof the wondersof childrencoming into their own.Felling the miracleof the brand new in the same marveling wonderas the first day they were born.
The awe andthe wonderhow new peoplecan come from us.
I am ever so gratefulto have the timeto processsuch wonder.
To fully embrace the momentcommit it to memoryas another oflife's passages.
I am gratefulI have grown a flexible heart.
A heart that can welcome children back in fullyfor the moments they are hereknowingthat I will have to once again let them goback to their own lives once again.
Maybe that's part of the beauty of the story.
Because even thoughsome days I miss terribly
back when they were little and mineI am fully awarejust like travel is always more glamorouswhen it's a comfortable memory at homesome times so are wistful memories of Christmas past.
Yesthere were idealic momentsthat have been committed to memory …
butthere was also a tremendousamount of work and pressureto do it all right by them.
A pressure that has been removedas they all have their own lives now.
This yearI want to fully acknowledgeChristmas season is different this year.
To luxuriatein memories of intimate family momentsbut to also take a deep breathand realizeto everything there is a season.
Realizing it is up to me to celebrateeach and everyone to the very best of my ability.
I will embrace this new season of lifeand holidaysby making new traditionsand observing some old ones as well.
I am gratefulI invested 100 percentin the days mine were littlenow I will once againinvest fully in this new season of lifeand traditions.
My heart of full of love for the pastandexcitement for the new.
As always my friends
I wish you love and joy as you style your lifeandcelebrate your seasons.( My next post will be sharing the wonderful engagement party!)