A little background: I was born, in 1957, in Port of Spain, Trinidad. I emigrated with my parents to Ottawa, Canada three years later. For a while, Ottawa was not “normal”. Trinidad was normal until, after a few years, I stopped dreaming about Port of Spain and I began to dream about Ottawa: snow, cold, big streets, the parliament buildings, the National Arts Centre, the Rideau canal, etc. Ottawa became the place from which my imagination springs.
I was thirty when I moved to Toronto. I moved for a number of reasons. For one thing, I wanted to be a writer and Toronto, being the center of the publishing industry in Canada, was the most obvious place to go. Then, too, I’d always loved visiting T.O. – as it’s called when it’s not called “Trawna” or To-RON-to. But, of course, living in a place is different from visiting it. For twenty-five years, I was like a person in exile. For the life of me, I couldn’t write about Toronto. I wrote exclusively about Ottawa.
That’s not unusual. Not knowing a city means, for me at least, not knowing where to set fictional scenes. Places have emotional reality for the writer. Setting my work in Ottawa, I knew at once where to place a break-up, say, or a conspiracy or moments in which characters contemplate life. This knowing isn’t so much for the reader as it is for the writer. The emotions one feels for places create a kind of atlas which one uses while writing. A concrete example: if I were to set scenes from a love story at the National Arts Centre, in Ottawa, there would be a kind of irony in it because the NAC means anything but love for me, whatever it might mean to others. In Toronto, for years, no place was, emotionally speaking, more significant than another. Toronto was a blank canvas that frustrated me. So, naturally, I chose to write about Ottawa, despite the fact that Ottawa receded in my memory and imagination until, in the end, my version of the city was almost as fantastic as Narnia or Flatland.
Curiously, when writing about Toronto, now, it feels as if the city were more actually present than Ottawa had been in my previous work. I’m at ease describing Toronto more minutely, depicting the city as concretely as I like. I never felt the need to do this when writing about Ottawa because, in the end, I was more interested in Ottawa’s emotional reality than it’s physical one. Toronto has entered my work almost bereft of emotional heft but with a weight no other city has had in my writing. I’m more aware of what Toronto looks like, what it is to the senses. And this more sensually present city is the one depicted in my most recent novel, Fifteen Dogs.
All of which is to say that I’m now more aware of Toronto and of myself in it. It’s in this sense that Toronto has become “home”, but home as a place to explore, a home not taken for granted. Soon, though not yet, I may even accept the designation “Toronto writer”. To put it in nautical terms: the anchor that was Ottawa has been drawn up and I feel myself drifting to a port called Toronto.
Location photos by Catherine Bush.
IN BRIEF: My View of Fifteen Dogs
I did briefly wonder if not being a big animal lover (although I do like dogs!) would be a barrier to enjoying this book; it wasn’t in the slightest and Fifteen Dogs is the best example of anthropomorphisation I’ve come across. In fact, it’s a triumph of characterization by any standards, in which canine and human attributes combine to produce a fascinating and unique perspective on life. Whilst entertaining and often very funny, the book has a particular depth and poignancy, deploying the dogs’ new consciousness to examine philosophical questions: what it means to be free/caged, to belong/be rejected, to be loved, to be heard – resulting in a new take on human behavior in all its complex glory and vulnerability. It’s also a multisensory experience, with the dogs’ relationship to territory bringing the streets, parks and lakes of Toronto alive in a fresh and unusual way. If you need a book gift for someone thoughtful and curious, this is my top tip – if they happen to love dogs, even better!
*POSTSCRIPT*
And since everyone’s started asking for Christmas present suggestions, next week I’ll be posting My Year in Books 2015, in which I look back on a very varied year of reading and name my personal favourites, most of which have appeared on the Literary Sofa.