What you surround yourself with is what you become. Truth be told, I had surrounded myself with the wrong crowd. My friends were emotionally negligent and really did not care for my health, for me or my opinions. I like to call these kinds of friends toxic friendships. I found myself lost in a sea of faces going nowhere.
7 Traits of a Toxic Friend: http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/healthy-connections/201006/toxic-friends-when-friendship-is-no-longer-healthy
Every weekend was a blur of partying untill five o’clock in the morning and then dragging myself to work in the next few hours. I would feel so anxious and out-of-place and drink myself away. At the begining I was the life of the party, but eventually, it got to be a real problem. Even my wildest friends told me of concerns for my drunken madness being way to out of hand.
This lifestyle not only made me increasingly mentally and emotionally sick but it soon turned to a physical illness. I was sick for about a month, on bed rest. Being the compulsive workaholic that I am, this time off of work felt very uncomfortable. In the silence of not being busy I was forced to really take a look at my life.
“Sometimes it takes hard times to make us gentil and strong.~Rigoletto
Change of Heart
If you hate the way you feel, change the way you feel. Sometimes it takes times like these to wake us up to this reality. I recently choose to let go of those toxic friendships. It has been a very lonely road.
Dare to color outside the lines
Dare to walk away from unhealth
Dare to be yourself
You never know who will love the hidden you
<3 you are not alone