His reply to my questions as to how we would treat this without going overboard in loading up the system with toxic drugs (this cancer will never be eradicated, hence cured), Dr. Levandovsky said he would treat it with "this and that" and if this and that did not provide relief or slow down of growth of tumors, he said he would treat it "with the other." He sensed I did not need to know specific effects of seven syllable oncologic drugs, nor would I remember their specific names even five minutes later. He just knew that I was leaving the specifics in his hands. The analogy is that he and God are taking care of specifics.
So this morning I go in for a bone strengthening shot and another daily drug, all taken orally. No IV's this time, no hair loss. My friend who had this same type cancer at the same time I had it initially (invasive lobular, HR strongly positive) DID have the cancer return to her bones three years ago and did everything possible to keep it at bay, including IV chemo which made her lose her hair again and made her very, very ill); she lost her battle two years ago and died in a very painful way. So maybe she helped me to choose the alternative I am choosing with "a little this, and a little that." And then maybe "a little something different."
My anxiety is under control with drugs and I have slept much better.
All those chemo hats I have been crocheting will go to the oncology unit for those needing to cover their baldness. Here are two finished last week.