This step-parenting thing freaks me out.
I may look like I have it all together but I'm just as unsure of myself as any new parent out there because I am a new parent.
I not only have fears of making mistakes but then the fear of hearing how someone else gets that right when I get it wrong. That some how I'll never live up to the standard set by bio mom.
I don't try to be bio mom or live up to the standard but rather set my own.
I try to balance my role as parent(ish) figure and friend.
I try not to overstep or offend while still giving love unconditionally.
I can't win but can't loose either.
I center my life around children who likely wouldn't care for me if their father weren't around and yet I wouldn't trade them for the world.
I have a loving husband and stepchildren who continually make me feel loved and that makes all of my fears worth it.
I only wish that when others looked at me they could see my fears and a woman who is really trying her best instead of all of the things I may do wrong.
I wish others could see the love in my heart for my husband and stepchildren. Then I remember what others think doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is the love we share as a family.