Spellbound #5

By Shivam Ralli @shivamralli167
This is the fourth part in the Spellbound Series, check the first three parts hereSpellbound #1
Spellbound #2
Spellbound #3
Spellbound #4

I dumped my bag on the floor as soon as the door opened. I was tired. Sure, I had enjoyed the day- I don’t know why. For the first time I looked forward to going to school again. Maybe it was that new guy- Anant. I just loved spending time with him. It felt as if he was meant to be there for me. I slumped down on the couch and started looking around the room drowsily. Both my parents worked. They never came back before 8 P.M. I had a lot of time to do anything I wanted.
As my eyes scanned the room, I saw something unusual. I saw a letter sitting on the table. A letter! Woah! A letter in this era. This is a shock. Immediately all vestiges of sleep ran away from my mind and I ran up to the table. I picked it up and then dropped it. It was ADDRESSED TO ME!! I quickly tore open the seam and opened the page. It was typed. It was from Ravi. I was surprised. I never expected him to write to me. I began to read.
Dear Ananya,
I loved you. I love you. I will continue to love you. But, who said that one has to be a lover to love? I love you like a brother because we are like Soulmates in that form. Your real lover awaits you elsewhere. So, I am telling you this because I plan to end my life today.
I know you’ll be shocked, but please hear me out?
I don’t have any other option left. That hole in the heart became enlarged and I couldn’t take the pain. I am a wimp and I end my life today.
I am sorry that we could never be together. I am sorry for what happened last year. I hope you make out with someone else.
If you are asking for my choice, go for Anant. He is smitten for you, and from your actions I think you are too.
Do not come and look for me Ananya. I had an amazing time with you on this planet.
P.S. Better be active on social networking sites so that no suspicion is aroused.You might share some parts of this letter with Shashank. Tell him the truth. Only my loved ones know the reason why I jumped. For everyone else, it is because I couldn’t handle the Adam teasing going on. Move on Ananya. You’ll be surprised what all occurs even when I am gone. ;)”
My hands trembled and the letter fell down from my hands. I couldn’t control myself. Tears were dripping down from my eyes. I never knew that his heart condition would arise to this seriousness.There was only one advice and kind-of-order in the letter. I had to be active on social networking sites. Gosh. Ravi knew me inside out. And he hit it right. I loved him like a brother on whom I could rely.
While the tears were dripping down, I felt as if I had lost a part of me. My heart felt as if it had engaged into a void. It felt as if shards were piercing my heart to check if I had died or not. It was too much to handle. Emotions couldn’t escape me now.
I picked up my phone and went into my room. I couldn’t even bring myself to cry as of now.  I was broken till the core and couldn’t even think what I was doing. I fired up the Facebook app and saw about 2 friend requests, 5 messages and 12 notifications. These all seemed so dull and pretentious after what had happened today.
How life could change after just read a few sentences. And that’s when my dam broke.  Tears flooded out of me from all the memories from last year as well as from the days of my breakup. All my rude and arrogant attitude crumbled like as if my life was being torn apart in front of me.With a huge block over my heart, I opened the friend requests and saw that one was from Anant. I accepted it. Ravi was right, I had some feelings for him. I quickly went on to the messages tab as the second message was from a guy who sent messages like, “Do yOu kNoW tHat I love yOu?”
I always think why they send messages like that. Have they forgotten the values imbibed from the ancestors? We girls still loved the term the called as ‘chivalry.’ I look for that attribute in every other guy.
Some had even gone and asked me whether I masturbate!? I don’t even know them and they want to know my private life. I liked guys like Anant and Ravi. Even thinking of him makes me wanna burst again.
I saw that I had a message from Ravi. I opened it quickly and read it. It stated.
“Hey Ananya, I think you might have got my letter by now. You should expect some things in the near future. ;) Plus, please deactivate my account. I couldn’t bring myself to do that honors. You have the credentials. Same as in 9th. If you have forgotten, here it is: Id: ravi.sinha.167Password: iloveananya
Forgive me if that hurts till now. Goodbye for the last time. :D”
Why GOD! WHY?! Tears began to flow again when I thought they were all dried up. I checked the other messages and saw that they were from my friends. I didn’t want to reply to them so I continued to the notifications tab. Nothing great there.
I lay down on my bed and began to cry. Soon, under the rhythm of sobbing, I fell asleep. I woke up to the knocks which were coming from the main gate. It was the postman. He gave me a letter. I was shocked. 2 letters in a single day!? How!?
I immediately tore open the seam and began to read it,
“ Greetings Ananya,
I am going to share how it felt like to see you for the first time.
Ever seen a cherry on a cake and how you want that part?
Ever seen a flower which has just bloomed?
You are that flower and cherry for me Ananya. I liked you instantly and developed a crush on you. For my whole life, people had called me devoid of emotions. But, when I looked at you, I just couldn’t stop gazing at you while thinking about how the great almighty created such a beautiful human!?You are my world Ananya. I have never fallen for anyone so soon.
I will make this a short letter, because I don’t know what to write. This is my first letter, you might burn it for not being pompous or chivalrous, but I need to learn that in writing.
I love how the sun streaks upon your face and how your smile dazzles the world.
You are like a petal whom anyone can gaze for the whole day.
Your touch is one thing I desire. At every moment.
Your lips are the pinnacle of perfection.
Your skin is so soft that the water and flowers are put to shame.
Your eyes are what stops the time for me.
-x-
Your admirer,
XYZ (Don’t have the guts to reveal it so soon, wait for it. I will do it. Ravi bought us together. I cried like hell when I read his letter)
I was shocked. This was one of the best love letters I had received. I had to give a reply to this! I quickly noticed that there was no address there. The person had used my address as sender's address and a fake address as receiver's address. So, it was sent to me as it was without a stamp. Amazing chap. He had some brain.
I picked up my pen and began to write in my diary. How can one love letter change my mood? I didn’t know before this. Let this day mark as a new beginning. I began to write my fantasy in the diary.