Scared That Depression Would Come Back

By Therealsupermum @TheRealSupermum

It was 3 weeks before my 18th birthday and my little girl 1st birthday. I was taken off my antidepressants that had been treating the depression I had suffered from. I started to feel really unwell. My 1st thoughts were that I was pregnant. I took 2 tests and staring at the positive lines. I was scared that depression would come back. How would I cope?

Having an abortion never crossed my mind at all. Going through my pregnancy was difficult; I was always sick and couldn’t accept the baby growing in me. At 22 weeks I was took to hospital and placed on a drip as I was very dehydrated. The following day I was allowed home. I had constant pains. Approaching 30 weeks it was growing on me that I was going to become a mom again and I was quite excited. At 37+6 weeks when I was in Asda with my mom I felt sharp pains.

Then I felt a gush, I started to panic. I rushed to the hospital to find out the baby’s heartbeat was dipping and my pulse and heart rate was so high. And I was 3cm dilated.

I was placed on a drip to see if that would help and I was shaking with fear. I heard 2 doctors saying it hadn’t worked and the needed to do something. I was then taken to the delivery suite where my waters broke. I wasn’t ready to be a mom yet.

An hour in I heard them talking about a C-section, I couldn’t deal with all this it was happening so quick. Three hours 25 minutes later a small 6lb 12oz baby was placed it my arms. She was okay I felt love instantly.

The 1st few days were so hard. She’s now 19 months and has a 3 year old little sister and I couldn’t be more happy that I learnt to love her.

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