Just follow me for a minute, step into my shoes if you may. I am Ms. Positivity and this is the start of the breaking down and the rising of ME!
Gosh it started a while ago May of 2011 at some point. I'm a mother of 2, I work full time, Psychology student full time with now 5 months left for school. Like many out there i'm in a relationship but am not married yet (but truly happy to the fullest) house, bills, friends, problems, and so much more.
I'm feeling alone, feeling like I'm going out of my mind. Not doing well in school that term-what is going on. I'm gonna get deep in a minute...I am an A+ B+ student am I getting a D in this class I actually wanted to quite...NO WAY!! What the BLEEPITY BLEEP BLEEPPPPPP is going on? (Hey we're family friendly here) I'm tired, burning the candle at 3 ends...yes three!!! I'm burned out in the middle too! All I want to do is sleep-anemia is getting worse & worse. I'm at work being pulled in so many different directions but still I'm Ms. Positivity. I help people reach deep down to be the best positive being they can be, but I'm broken inside-just a little but I can't figure out just what it was!
Trust me I prayed (I never stop praying) but the fact is I was not feeling like me 100%! I was gaining weight, losing weight, crying silently every other night, still smiling, still being positive, how can this be....I needed to hurry up and Get back to being "ME"
I will Show you how in a while!!!! I turned my Positivity Light Wayyyyyy UP!
To Be Continued.....