First let me say that my vacation was just amazing! I was able to relax and compose quite a bit of Poetry and I also managed to complete a book and a Book Review.
(I am so glad I was able to catch up on some of my work)
I won’t bore you guys with too many details but… I went fishing and hiking, and I spent a lot of time alone in the forest with my books! I can’t exactly explain how good I felt while alone in the forest, experiencing so many emotions so clearly and being able to concentrate better then I have ever been able too before. I was able to basically clear my head and find out exactly what it was I need to be concentrating on in life right now such as (Going to College and finding a better job) and what direction I want to take my blog and my writing.
I really had an awesome time with my family and friends but when I woke up this morning I was pretty sick…it was rather cold every morning so I am thinking it’s just a bad cold I really hope it’s not the flu! >.<
I will probably be taking it easy these next couple of days even though I had a whole neatly organized list of posts I wanted to get done today and published before going to sleep but it looks like my plans have changed. I will still be doing 2-3 posts today but not any more then that. I will also be catching up with everything I missed over the weekend including everyone’s posts and poems, It might take me some time today to get through all the emails but I will for sure!
Here is the 3 Poems I failed to post while on vacation and today’s poem as well.
Also to everyone waiting on a project or a response from me I promise I will get them to you or get whatever work I need to finish completed as soon as I can. If I didn’t feel so horrible and was actually able to focus and think I would completely try and finish these projects and responses but I seem to be getting worse as the day progresses.
(I apologize)
*Warning*
These Poems might be a bit dark and depressing (To some) So yea!
-Day 26-
My Heart
Delightfully dead
Asleep and perfectly still
A heart that once was full of life
Petrified by unfortunate events
Black from the evil inside the tissue
Shattered dreams clogging the arteries
Yet still able to function normally
Descriptions of my own lifeless organ
I carry around a damaged shell
Riddled with Rot and motionless skin
Afraid to uncover whats on the inside
-Day 27-
My old Friend
Back Here Again
An old friend unwanted
Returns with out warning
Preparing to hurt whats left inside
Knifes and needles in hand
Plotting the best moment of attack
Threatening to destroy progress
I try to wash away the fear
But the cold is back yet again
A very familiar friend
Maybe relapse is my best friend
The only one I can always
Expect to return
The only thing in life
I constantly feel
I reserve a date with chemicals
To let me escape my emotions
Confusing my true feelings
I never wanted to return
A place so viciously avoided
But it seems I have a permanent
Reservation and an eternal invitation
To consort with ravens until the end of time
Day -28-
Death
Determined to lose
Euphoric temptations
Abandoning all reality
Together with my demons
Home at last
-Day 29-
Playful Yet Unaware
Smiles contradict the truth
Smothering anything that’s left alive
Playful interactions
Playful encounters
A constant Mirage of lies
Dreaming my way through life
Playful flirtations
Playful is just an act
I perform when hiding myself
When hiding the real me
Away from the other Playful
Creatures and ghosts
Invading my sanity
Uninvited and unwanted
Unaware of the danger
Lurking in front of them