My Floating Thoughts And Musings

By Latoya @latoyallawrence

Some people will sugarcoat (just to avoid conflict and negativity aroused or escalated by garbage individuals) and say that low scale/trash people are not necessarily stupid but that they just lack knowledge when they are the dumbest people I have ever come across.

It did not take me to reach adulthood to know or realize this fact either. I took notice of this during childhood with children and adults who constantly showed their inadequate mindset and most of them do not tend to get better with age, they merely get even worse.

Not only are their mentality a turn-off but their mannerisms, the way they look, talk, and act. Everything about them is and was undesirable.

Their energy and vibration speak loudly and is not the type of energy that is wonderful, peaceful, or attractive. Their energy is repulsive and unhealthy to be around.

In their stupidity they consider themselves bright and consider genuinely intelligent and smart people dumb out of envy, jealousy, or the ignorance that they hold as they are naturally unable to rise to specific levels of knowledge and understanding.

Some of them believe if they obtain jobs or are given certain professional positions or positions of authority in the work field– that they really should not have in the first place– that it brings to them status or value when titles do not change the true narrative surrounding them at all.

They also feel entitled to respect that they do not deserve.

No matter how much they try to dress up in fine clothing and unauthentically present themselves in lanes not meant for them they still appear as nothing and are recognizable.

Their approach is desperate and pathetic they cannot accept who they are and what is absurd is how they try to switch and underhandedly reverse roles with those who are born of substance by trying to put themselves up on top and put the ones out of their league on the bottom.

Trash can be rich, poor, or middle-class.

A lot of them believe that money or material possessions make one better than others when it is one’s character, grounding, and the power of knowledge and spirituality that takes one above whether a person is well-off financially or not.

Money and job title means nothing.

A lot of people whose self-esteem is dependent on outward things instead of meaningful things that reside inward are not shit and when you take the money and status away from them they are easy to break as their foundation was wrapped up in false beliefs and not built upon depth.

And the way that these people shoot out children is ridiculous. Instead of multiplying they need their tubes tied and ducts cut– but the world is already fucked up due to their long-line of generational existence throughout the centuries and decades.

God gives life to anything–aside from undesirable people why create certain insects and other disgusting things that serve whatever unimaginable purpose to the divine.

I will never understand why God created these types of people–a God who is supposed to be great.  To me, he is lacking.

I know that God’s power is great, but I have always doubted the greatness of his character. Creating garbage people and undesirable circumstances of life (whatever is defined or considered as undesirable to an individual) speaks for itself.

Free will is not the culprit. God is omniscient so he knew everything before he called things into existence.

I am not saying that God does not do a lot of good things but no matter how much good I have experienced in life does not mean God is or that he is my idea of what is completely good.

People only fear God because of his power and what the Almighty can do. Take away his power (which of course is impossible) and see how many would fear and follow him then.

I would rather follow a God because I truly relate to and respect what he stands for and not because of what he can do to me or place where he can put me if I do not or do not want to obey him in things not kosher to my taste.

And Christians/ religious folk like to utter: do not trust in or go with your own understanding– manipulative bullshit that is sometimes taken out of context. A church lady once said to me “You don’t fear God you resent him.” She then insinuated I would go to hell. People like that tickle me as they believe they have a direct line to God whereas to anyone else he is not so easily accessible while they are the most corrupt in heart and mind with their narrow-shaped delusions. 

I do not care I have always questioned God, and I feel that I have every right to because I did not ask to come into this sick world (even though it is believed we may have agreed to come here before we were born and have no recollection of it).

I never agreed and still do not agree with a lot of things written in the Bible or the way things are and the way that God made things in general. However, it is what it is, and I have never been shy or afraid to analyze or to speak in the ways that I feel.

I cannot honestly say that I love God I have felt like this since my youth because of my perception of him that is justified through ordinary and extraordinary life experiences.

Whatever I feel is between me and God. I am still constantly blessed and protected because I have always been honest, true of heart, and not phony like a lot of others who try to put on a show, pretend, or force themselves to go along with conforming to certain shit.

I do not have to always be right in God’s eyes with my thoughts and viewpoints, but I never tried to hide my perspectives and am not ashamed of them. He gave me my own mind. If he did not punish me for the way that I proudly am who the fuck is anyone else to think that they can.

People often view and interpret others through filtered lenses while God detects through clear, unaltered vision.

According to scripture we all fall short in some way or another, but he knows where a person’s sincere heart and motives lie so what others think or say is irrelevant.

It feels good and is healthy to not repress one’s truth in who they are, how they think, and how they choose to live and evolve best suited to them.

I love myself, I believe in myself, I trust in my individuality, and I have deep fulfillment and peace within. I am too strong-willed to be persuaded. I love my free will.

Some people in the past assumed that because I lived my life not doing things that the norm or majority did meant that I was either keeping God’s ways, living under religious doctrine, thought I was better (though I was and still am better than the trash) just a goody two shoes, or whatever other shit they projected in their misconception or insecurities when in reality the ways and customs of society and the broad patterns in their average ways of thinking was just never my thing or nature.

Some even tried to classify me as a bad person with their intentional lies against me, and perceptions made through projecting their own mode of lifestyle and being–they were just telling on themselves.

In their vain attempts to destroy me I continued to elevate naturally through spirit.

Their malevolent intentions have always produced an opposite effect rather than a negative one that brought intangible positivity to my growth and further cemented stability.

No one defines me as and no one gets to write my narrative but me.