I need your help lovelies. I’m in a right pickle. I have been struggling with mood changes since I was 16/17 year old but I seem to get worse randomly.
I suddenly snap from happy to sad, happy to angry then happy to suicidal.
I have very high periods of being happy, where nothing can touch me to very low periods where I feel like utter crap.
I suffer with anxiety issues and agoraphobia already.
It’s not depression or postnatal depression, I have been there done that.
I seem to be fine for months, just little ups and downs then BAMN up, down, up, down. The mood changes are making my life hell.
I was on a high for weeks after having baby. Nothing could touch me. Then I hit the ground so hard I thought it was going to swallow me up.
When I’m on a high I can do anything, nothing can touch me.
My mind goes into creative overload.
Then when I’m on a down the slightest thing bugs me.
I don’t want them telling me I’m depressed again.
I don’t want to be on antidepressants again.
The last few weeks I’ve been boom, bang, boom ,bang every sodding half hour.
My doctor is just putting me on antidepressants which make me a hell of a lot worse, said it was depression. But I have these periods of total and utter glory, sex drive goes through the roof, so happy it’s unbelievable so I do not believe its depression.
Then there’s the medium me.
Then there’s horrible, self-hating me.
My concentration is terrible a lot of the time as I’m bobbing between moods a lot quicker than I used to0 (usually it was long periods of one or the other).
I’m going out of my mind here.
What can I do about mood changes?
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