He's a Jehovah Witness and I'm not really into the whole religion thing. Don't get me wrong I am spiritual and have a relationship with God. I pray all the time, I could be brushing my teeth, I pray, in the car I pray, in the grocery I pray. But I'm just not religious. I grew up in a family where my mom is a Catholic, my dad was an Anglican and my grandmother was a Jehovah Witness, my brother in law is a Muslim so I've experienced a lot of religions and I know a lot about all of them. But personally I've never been serious about religion just my spirituality. But if I were to have a religion it would be Catholic.
Fast forward to last year when I reconnected with him it didn't really matter what religion he was because I know I can respect and get along with anybody regardless of their religion. When we first started talking the main thing that attracted me to him was the fact that he was serious about his faith. Because even though I'm not religious I do want to be with someone that believes in God. So the fact that he was serious about his faith was a plus. Now I will admit that when I did find out he was a Jehovah Witness I was a little taken a back but I quickly got over it because he was just a great person and I wasn't going to let religion get between our friendship.
Somewhere along the line things evolved from being just friends to something more. At that point he informed me that he's not supposed to be dating outside the religion, it's something the congregation doesn't take lightly. I was told there are places we couldn't go together because someone from his congregation may see us and that would be bad. One day we were in the mall and someone did see us and it was explained that I was an old school friend that he met up with. So I just shrugged it off and was like whatever because this is not going to get serious anyway. (Long story that I'm not going to explain) Or so I thought, because lo and behold we ended up falling in love. This wasn't some puppy love kinda thing this was a serious, I don't know what I'd do without you kinda love. So now if I wanted to be serious about our situation I needed to make a decision. Do I walk away from someone I feel is my soul mate because of our religious differences or do I push forward and possibly convert to his religion so we could be together?
Eventually I decided that I would start studying and see where it leads me. I don't have a problem with two consenting adults being in a relationship when they share different views on religion because I grew up in a family that was allowed to be free in choosing the religion they follow. My mom and dad were two different religions but yet still they were able to co exist and raise children together without a problem. So if they could do it why can't I? I always knew that if I were to make a child for someone of a different religion from me I would have no problem letting the kids grow up under the father's religion simply because my religion isn't that important so if the father's religion is important to him then our kids can be raised as such until they are old enough to decide for themselves. But the situation I am in, my religion plays a huge part in the rest of my life.Those of you that know me know that I'm a hopeless romantic so love plays a huge part in my life. The two main goals I want to achieve in life is becoming a wife and mother and I've always believed that with love anything is possible however this situation is making me second guess that because if that saying was true I wouldn't have to chose love or religion. I would be accepted for who I am.
So here I was studying this religion and my mind was just racing wondering if I was making the right decision. If I continued down this path I wouldn't be able to celebrate Christmas anymore: my favorite holiday in the world. I like to be free, I don't really like being told what to do. I'm a Sagittarius so go figure. However I find myself making the choice to be a part of something that seems constricting. Something that makes you choose them or your friends or them or love. Is that something I really want to do?
I still don't know the answer to that but I have slowed down on the studying so I could get my mind right because right now I don't know if I'm falling out of love or out of religion...
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