Halloween brings back PTSD feelings
The feeling of panic
The feeling of being out of control of my safety
Fear and anger just manifest in tears
God why did you not keep me safe
I prayed that the monsters under my bed would go away
But still through the window do the demons crawl
The terrors at night are inescapable
underneath my skin lies a discomfort
Scratching at the surface
I feel gross
covered in these memories
I can’t seem to remember
Or to forget
Easier to pretend away