I think that you are not a bad guy Mr. Lindsay, but you offered nothing to these “boring” thing, because you claim to be a womanizer. Women felt insecure and not loved with you. So they became psycho.
I was mad crazy wild in love with them, and they were nuts in love with me too. Women often fall crazy in love with me. Happens all the time. But then they fall out of love too, and they turn into the worst hater enemies you have ever seen. I think love and hate are very close.
Often even though I am head over heels in love with some woman, she will say, “You don’t really love me at all,” or “You don’t care,” or “I wonder if you even like me,” or “You have no true empathy for any other human being.” I don’t understand any of this because to me I am nuts in love with them, and they see it as I don’t care, I don’t love them, or I have no empathy for them or anyone else.
I think maybe men and women show their love in different ways. There is an old story about some woman who says to her husband of many years, “You don’t even love me anymore, do you? It seems like you don’t love me at all!” The man looks up from his book and says, “Well, I’m still here, aren’t I?” To him, showing his love means just merely sticking around! His attitude is that if he didn’t love her, he would just take off. So the fact that he stays with her shows he loves her.
And even if I’m as crazy in love with her as any man has ever been about any woman, I would still try to cheat on her. I would not want her to find out about the other woman though because that would hurt her. And I like to have open relationships even when I am mad in love.
Once I get a girlfriend, my mind says, “Cool! I have a woman! Now I need to get another one!” And if I get two girlfriends, my mind goes crazy and says, “Yay! You have two girlfriends! Now you need to get three!” I have no idea why my mind works like this. Maybe I am greedy.
I could be monogamous, but only be default. That is, say I was not lucky at cheating on her for 5 years, then I could be monogamous for 5 years. This could easily happen because I don’t try very hard to cheat when I have a girlfriend.
To me the fact that I am cheating on her doesn’t mean I don’t love her. It seems like I can love a woman and still cheat on her because cheating is just what I do. My mother shakes her head. She thinks I am incorrigible and hopeless when it comes to this sort of thing. I think maybe I am a “woman addict.”