So it is two o’clock in the morning and I can’t sleep. My neighbors decide to play their television all night and it is very triggering not being able to escape the loud and out of my control situation.
I hate the feeling of being trapt
I hate rude inconsiderate men
It makes me so angry I gel dizzy
I hate having to face emotions
I think I am getting irritable because of the nightmares that haunt my sleep. I have not rested in a years. I can’t escape the memories. I feel trap in the darkness.
The only thing I feel is torment fear which seems inescapable.
God please show me peace
Please help me forgive and calm down
There are parts of me that are so angry at you. They feel you don’t care to help them. I don’t want to be angry but I am scared to get in touch with all of myself. …
This is causing a real internal war. I am exausted and I don’t know what else to do. I have no fight left within myself.
This feels like a cival war
I really need help
Stay strong your not alone ♡
Xoxo