Breaking Silence

Posted on the 20 November 2012 by Uglytruthis

Feeling is the worst part 

Sexual abuse undermines a persons voice

My voice of NO!, the voice of fight was never respected. Rather than fighting I choose flight. Numbness became a safe place to hide. This lack of emotional response is not good my friends. Instead of being filled with love based feelings one is left with a cluster-pile of fear.

Fear-based emotions: Anxiety, anger, control, sadness, depression, inadequacy, confusion, hurt, lonely, guilt, shame

An angry face is suppose to look >:(.For some reason my angry face is confused with sad face  and anxiety. I am literally crawling underneath my skin. The best way to sort through this confusion is to ask yourself this question.

“Why am I so angry”?

  • Instead of politely knocking on my closed-door, he would just barge in
  • Stolen innocence at a very young age
  • Absolutely No boundary
  • smothering
  • Disrespect for who I am and my feelings
  • Manipulation, guilt trips, pity party’s and mind games
  • Controlling everything
  • Overreacting to silliness
  • The luminous feeling of being stalked in my own home
  • Lack of privacy
  • Not saying what I want/need to say
  • Being abandoned and lied to

Whats your list? Need a place to both find yourself and hide your list? Try the you shoe box.

Crafty Idea “The You Shoe Box”

The outside describes your current self

The inside reveals the child in you and your hidden feelings