Today as I was getting ready for a day of work, I tried to clean out my favorite tiny pink coffee mug and the glass contents of the mug fell from the burner and broke into a million pieces into the sink. This image feels very metaphorical of my life. I am tring to hold it together and clean up the truth that I am not ok inside but I am breaking apart; wracked with pain and nightmares that prove to be a childhood reality. I am not too sure how to hold these tiny pieces together anymore.
I feel very lost in a sea of thoughts that I can not remember and they do not end. I can not concentrate on what I am suppose to do from day to day. As if a fog of empty thought crowds out my ability to function. I can not hold myself together on my own anymore. I do not know how to trust even myself with the truth to be remembered. With the many disjointed parts of me, scattered upon the cold hard ground.
What do you do when you find yourself at a breaking point?
I would like to take a moment of gratitude to thank the beautiful people who voted me for the Libster award! you are beautiful and this is just what I needed to hear. You are not alone <3"><3"><3 There is an encouraging family I have found here on word press that I never had growing up and I am so grateful for the support and honesty that can set a breaking heart free.
- “I find strength, encouragement, and motivation to join in on life here.” Shay Amore
http://relinquishingdarkness.wordpress.com/
- “I really like this young lady, her style and most of all her soul.” Sunshine
http://avictimsjournal.wordpress.com/
I would also l to thank and nominate two bloggers who have been a staple of support from the beginning of my blog:
- Behind the Mask of Abuse http://behindthemaskofabuse.com/
My dear friend took the time to help and understand when I lost all hope, who kept me believing there was still hope for goodness of people. Thank you for your kindness it always reminds me I am not alone in this fight.
- Anna Bachinsky “A Daughter by Design” http://daughterbydesign.wordpress.com/
Your words are beautiful and filled with hope. Your words are a light when my world seems the darkest. May you keep shining on <3"><3"><3
You are not alone alone today, stay strong
xoxo