I am writing this blog to help people understand just how serious an anxiety disorder can be and how badly it can affect daily life. I’ve battled anxiety, depression and a panic disorder for the last 4 years now. At first I just felt down all the time, had panic attacks daily and felt nervous all the time gradually it got worse. I would see a story in the newspaper of someone dying from a bee sting and I would become petrified of bees to the point where I carry an electronic zapper and wear thick jumpers even in the summer.
Another article I read was about a lady who drank 7 pints of water and drowned herself so I stopped drinking water. It sounds silly but I don’t associate water as being juice/pop/tea or coffee, I just see it as water so I’ve not drank water since for fear of drowning, had it have been orange juice instead id have stopped drinking that.
A few months later a news story was on TV about the rising food costs forcing takeaways to use cheaper ingredients which resulted in a lady dying as she was allergic to a particular nut that been added to a takeaway curry. I now will not try new foods, instead I stick to “safe” foods every week, chicken nuggets, chips, fruit/veg, certain pies and basically things I’ve had before. I would never dream of trying anything new and won’t buy anything I’m used to if it says “improved” or “extra taste”, just in case I’m allergic to it and die.
Every bump, bang and bruise signifies a potential blood clot to me and I’m straight down to the local Accident and Emergency department.
It doesn’t just end here, there’s more and some of you may laugh and think its silly, its ok. I’m used to it and deep down i know it’s silly but I can’t help it.
I’ve planned a way to survive just about anything that’s thrown in my way. Its that’s bad I even have a zombie survival kit just in case (I plan to live in my loft and survive eating tinned and packet food which are already in the loft)
Should dinosaurs walk the earth again, I’ll run to the woods in the hope that they’ll not bother coming after me, they’ll know their easiest food source will be in the large cities. Just about everything you can imagine, I’ve planned for it
The thing that scares me the most (no- absolutely terrifies me beyond being scared straight and brings me to shaking tears just saying it) is the only thing I can’t figure out how to survive the world ending.
That is where I must leave the blog post as I’m now shaking too much to write any further
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