Recently I have gotten involved with a drug addict…
He has made me feel awful about who I am. The bad feelings have turned worse. I have tried to drink away the anxiety and medicate it away. The feeling of emptiness won’t escape.
I have become numb and ugly towards goodness, towards all the positive people in my life. My words have become void and cold. My heart is stone. Last night his intentions were shown and they have no love in them.
Bitterness and hatred has left no light. I am ashamed of what I have become. Negativity has become a thick cloud of poison to push everyone away…
… Its easier said than done… I need to walk away from this lifestyle
To walk away from this abuse and toxic relationships
To make positive steps in the right direction
To let go and let God
I once tasted a love that was real
Just need to remember that no matter what has been done, there is forgiveness waiting with open arms… there is hope for a new beginning
Stay strong <3 You are not alone