Littleredbek

LATEST ARTICLES ( 101 )

• Conversations

  “Do you wear earrings darling?” She asks as she continues to clean up the kitchen bench she’s been pottering away at for the past hour. Read more

  Posted on 04 March 2024 SELF EXPRESSION

• I Need It

  “I don’t have a problem” I tell myself, as I pick a well smoked joint, that has less than a cm of weed left in it, and light it.I take a drag, as long as I... Read more

  Posted on 24 February 2024 SELF EXPRESSION

• Just Another Vice

  It’s just past 4am. I’ve lost it, sobbing as my pay finally hits my bank account and it’s less than half of what it should be. I can afford rent, yay, but…... Read more

  Posted on 20 February 2024 SELF EXPRESSION

• The End / The Beginning

  ‘I’m sorry to have to tell you, your mother is dying.’The words that I had already spent the past three weeks trying to work through the mental gymnastics, stil... Read more

  Posted on 19 February 2024 SELF EXPRESSION

• Dying

  I hate youI hate you for deciding now was the time to disrupt our lives for the last timethis was meant to be my yearthis was meant to be untarnished by you,... Read more

  Posted on 09 February 2024 SELF EXPRESSION

• Almost, but Not

  I was today years old, when I realised I will always be second best I remember as a child, trying and pushing so hard to get attention, that I went out of my wa... Read more

  Posted on 06 January 2024 SELF EXPRESSION

• I See

  a little girl, afraid of being hurt. Afraid of losing a mother, a family and belonging. I see a woman, scared of being alone, scared of being rejected and scare... Read more

  Posted on 20 December 2023 SELF EXPRESSION

• Today I Woke up Feeling brokenUnfixable and Unretrievably...

  Today I woke up feeling brokenUnfixable and unretrievably brokenI wanted you there,I wanted our baby still inside meI wanted our future to be sketched out, roug... Read more

  Posted on 08 September 2023 SELF EXPRESSION

• I Think

  I want to die I think I’m at a point where I can’t see any sunshine, any hope of happiness or a future where I am smiling infinitely I think you were the last... Read more

  Posted on 17 June 2023 SELF EXPRESSION

• Hi, I’m The Problem.

  The last few days some fucked up realisation keeps hitting me like a tonne of bricks. I wake up alone in my bed, in a share house, in a rental. I have this... Read more

  Posted on 11 June 2023 SELF EXPRESSION

• Happy Mothers Day

  This time last yearI thought everything was finally working outI thought the days of heartbreakof needlesof scansof being alone in the doctors, crying my eyes... Read more

  Posted on 15 May 2023 SELF EXPRESSION

• The Boy In The Castle

  He pretended to let some in, only for them to find his dungeon. To find a part of him, but just the cold, dark spaces that no one belonged in He didn't take... Read more

  Posted on 11 May 2023 SELF EXPRESSION

• The Competition With No Prize

  Self preservation is something I pride myself onI guess since I was a child, I learned that the people you love the most hurtand the ones that aren’t meant to... Read more

  Posted on 28 April 2023 SELF EXPRESSION

• The Crash

  I knew it was coming Knew that the mania that has consumed me for a week and a half would suddenly halt and I’d come crashing downMaybe it’s reading words I... Read more

  Posted on 08 April 2023 SELF EXPRESSION

• Magnets

  You and I were magnetsTwo magnets trying to force ourselves togetherTrying to appreciate the differences but failing to meet in the middleWe could get... Read more

  Posted on 30 March 2023 SELF EXPRESSION

• It’s Hard to Know Where to Start

  When the person you’re going to hurt the most, is the person you love so deeply. The person you wish was right for you, but isn’t and hasn’t been since the firs... Read more

  Posted on 28 March 2023 SELF EXPRESSION

• Breaking My Own Heart

  , So You Don’t Have ToIt’s okI did the big thingThe big thing, of talking to someone who knows you, me and him. I told him everything, how I read into... Read more

  Posted on 01 March 2023 SELF EXPRESSION

• Purpose

  I think I’m done I think I’ve felt like a failure for enough of my life, to bow out now and end it on my terms before letting it get the better of meI’m lost an... Read more

  Posted on 28 February 2023 SELF EXPRESSION

• The New Normal

  Writing is my therapy but also my downfall, because once my words are out there the damage is done, the pain inflicted and the realities I’ve been trying to mas... Read more

  Posted on 11 October 2022 SELF EXPRESSION

• Snowflake

  

  May 4th was the date you were transferred. We watched as they placed you directly into me, all on a screen. You were there, a “textbook” embroyo, they said. Read more

  Posted on 21 May 2022 SELF EXPRESSION