My Year of Discovering How Weird the Mind Gets, Pt. X [Free Movement]

This is month ten in my year of studying altered states of consciousness, and this post will be on movement and the mind.

There are many downsides to being introverted, but one upside (at least in being a kinesthetic-oriented introvert) is that I can get out of my head and in touch with my body quickly and efficiently when I'm in motion. It can be a blissful state when the inner yakking pipes down and my awareness becomes attuned to sensation.

I would differentiate three types of movement that have very different effects on my state of consciousness. First, there are highly repetitive acts of movement such as running. Now, I do run because it's great exercise, but it doesn't tend to put me in the state of mind I'm talking about. Your results may vary. I know many people find "runner's highs" or achieve a quieting of the mind when running. For me, running tends to produce a daydream-centric state of mind. I sometimes counter this by focusing my awareness on my breath, stride, or sensations, but - left to its own inertia - my mind goes into daydream mode.

Second, there are fixed sequence series of movements - preferably with a flow. The best example that I can think of - and which I currently practice - is taiji. I've been practicing Yang Style Taiji for a few years now, and find it's conducive to this state of mind. However, the point that differentiates this type of movement from the next is that it takes some time to get to that point. One has to ingrain the sequence of movements into one's body, then coordinate the breath, and then correct minute mistakes in the movement. It's worth it, but it's not an instant ride to altered consciousness. While you're getting the fundamental movements down, the conscious mind is necessarily quite active and it's hard to tune into the movement and the sensations.

Third, this is what I would call free movement. Some people think of it as a kind of dance, but not one with a fixed choreography, which would fit more in the second category. Free movement is just letting your body move (usually to music) with awareness to the body, but without conscious direction. While the feel created is much like that of the second type of movement, mentally it bears more resemblance to free writing, which I discussed last month. That is, one is trying not to direct the body consciously, but rather let the movement come about (perhaps mediated by the music.) Rather than trying to consciously direct the movement, the conscious mind is used to direct and maintain awareness of sensations. Sometimes, I keep my awareness on the soles of my feet, feeling how various movements - subtly or unsubtly - change the distribution of weight on the feet.

In doing this, I find that sensitivity to sensations - external and internal - dials up. While I'm focusing on internal sensation. I often notice tactile sensations that would usually not register. There's also a more visceral experience of the effect of music, which is another subject in its own right. The blissful effect of music seems to be amplified by the body in motion.

In thinking about the difference between the second and third types of movement experience, I was reminded of the argument that a ritual is an essential element of plumbing the depths of the mind. As the argument goes, there's something about inggraining a sequence of actions into one's muscle memory and continually performing them that tunes one into something vaster than the self.

I'm still planning to do two more posts in this series, although I'm bouncing around alternative subjects for November and December, those joining this experience in progress and curious about previous posts can find them:

January - Psilocybin Mushroom

February - Sensory Deprivation / Float Tank

March - 30 Days of Meditation

April - Hypnosis

May - EGG Feedback

June - Breathwork

July - Lucid Dreaming

August - Sleep Deprivation

September - Free-writing / Poetry