This post is an anonymous guest post
I thought I had meet the man of my dreams, I was just 16years old living in a hostel after being kicked out of home. I fell in love quickly moved in with him and fell pregnant with my little girl.
He first hit me when I was 20wks pregnant.
I should of left then but I didn’t see what he was doing. I thought he did it as he loved me how wrong was I. I gave birth alone to my little girl he was high on drugs and didn’t give a dam! Life didn’t change when we went home constantly being beaten and hiding the bruises from him but I didn’t have the guts to leave him. In Nov 2009 I gave birth to my little boy once again alone he was in prison for assault.
He didn’t care but daftly I let him back into our lives told me he had changed was going to look after me what a mistake I made. When my boy was 10months old both my kids were removed into care due to domestic violence. I crumpled, overdosed, self harmed and just utterly destroyed myself the scars I still have today.
I fought hard to try get my kids home I step that never happened they were adopted and I have never meet them since a day that haunts me forever. I carried on in self-destruct mode couldn’t see the point in living without my kids. I wanted life to be over wanted it to be a nightmare that would soon be over, it never was.
I still live with the torment now.
I live for the letters I receive once a year to see the photos of my kids I should be seeing grow up at home with me.
In may 2008 I fell pregnant with my youngest child. Frightened they would take him too, I hid away from the world but finally faced up to it and admitted I was pregnant.
I fought through courts and won to keep my child at home, and here we are in 6weeks time he’s 3, still living with me and having no input from Social Services. I still live with the daily torment of my kids being adopted but live for the day when the come to look for me so we can be a family once again.
To anyone suffering domestic violence get out now and you can move on and live a happy life away!
