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I have a huge issue at the moment and its one that is beginning to get out of hand and cause me upset and keeping me awake at night.
I have had a rough few weeks as many of my friends know. That is not helping this situation.
I have friends who are expecting babies soon and they have kindly asked me to have a sort through of any baby clothes I have left. The truth is this thought upsets me, I don’t want to.
After what has happened recently I blocked all the pain by thinking lets concentrate on the 6 kids you have and be glad that you have 6 healthy children, but the thought never leaves me.
Do I have that one more child?
I can not bring myself to be sterilised or allow the husband to have the snip. He wants what I want, I know he would love more kids, but he’s sensible.
- I want to get back to work.
- Do I have the finances, the room for another child?
- Will having another effect my other 6 kids?
- Can I go though another hard pregnancy?
- Do I already have enough kids?
I am in turmoil and have given myself 3 years to think about this, I had the implant put into my arm a few weeks ago. But I hate it being there, its stopping me from filling this empty gap I feel.
Maybe I don’t want another baby and its just the thought of giving away all my baby items that’s the issue? Maybe its because of what I have been through that’s causing me to feel this way.
How do you know when its the right thing to do or know that its just your body being broody?
Do other mums find it hard to get rid of everything that reminds them of little babies?
