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What Next?

By Rubytuesday
I'm about a year in to my recovery nowI  am weight restoredMy mood is goodAnxiety under controlI feel strong Capable AbleI've just about recovered physicallyAnd am on the way to becoming recovered mentallyAlthough I don't think I'll ever be fully recoveredBut I'm hoping to be as well as I can possibly be 
Now that I'm feeling betterNow that I am no longer caught in a deadly game of life and deathI find myself wonderingWhat now?What next?What do I do now that I am feeling better?My ED dominated my life for over ten years It was like a jobI worked all week ie restricting And at the end of the week I expected a big fat pay check ie weight lossThen of course I had my addiction to contend with over the yearsWhich was also like a full time jobSo now I find myself thinking Where do I go from here?I wrote about starting a courseAnd I thought they was what I wanted to doBut if I am honest Business and computers are not my thingThey don't interest meThey don't capture my attentionI guess I would prefer to study something a bit more artyThat would suit my personality a bit moreSo I've decided that I'm not going to do the coursePlus the fact that I will lose my disability benefit if I start the courseEverything is telling me not to do itSo I'm not going to
What are you going to do?I hear you cryWell I've decided for the next yearTo concentrate on my recovery 
Prioritising my health and recoveryFocus on meetings and therapyAnd also volunteer at my local dog shelterI rang then today to inquireAnd I'm going to see them next Thursday to fill out paper workI am super duper excited about this I can't wait They mentioned that my main jobs will be walking and socialising the dogsMy idea of heaven!
In other newsI can't wait to get my next piercing doneBut can't decide which one to getCan any of you lovely ladies help me out with a suggestionInquiring minds want to know...

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