I’ve been married for about 6 months and my husband needs sex almost every day, but I’m not into this most of the time. Sometimes we speak about role play, and other times he spanks me, but later I feel guilty that we may have done something wrong. How can I increase my desires?
I’m a little concerned that you’re already disinterested so soon after marriage; do you feel that your level of desire has changed since the wedding? In other words, were you more interested in sex at first, but now find that you’re less so? If that’s the case, it might be helpful for you to pay attention to when you feel interested, and when you don’t; for example, do you feel more receptive to sex on days when you don’t work, or when your husband treats you in a certain way (helps you, compliments you, etc)? Do you feel less interested when he wants to do things (like spanking) that make you feel guilty? You didn’t mention your age or background, but I’m going to guess you’re fairly young (under 30) and from a traditional upbringing that taught you to feel guilty about sex. So what I’m thinking is that your husband may be more experienced than you, and might be rushing you into things you’re not quite ready for yet. As I suggested, note the times you feel more interested in sex, and tell your husband so; when he wants to do things that make you feel shy or guilty, say to him, “I really like it when you do x to me” (where “x” is something you’ve noticed makes you feel sexy). People tend to respond better to positive statements such as “I like it when you do this”, than to negative statements like “I don’t like it when you do that”. That having been said, if he does something you really dislike, you need to tell him so gently but firmly (as advice rather than as an accusation). Marriage is a partnership, and though your husband may always want more sex than you do, he has to take care of your needs, too. Over time, you’ll become more comfortable with sex, and experimentation won’t seem quite so strange to you; at that time, you may find that things which used to bring on guilt no longer bother you so much. It looks to me as though you love your husband and want to be a good wife to him, but for right now he needs to demonstrate his love for you by being patient and allowing you to sexually mature at your own rate. If he keeps pushing you too quickly, it’s just going to make you resentful and less interested in sex, and that’s not good for either of you.