Sick

I'm off school todayAnd was off yesterday tooSince I started my course four weeks agoI've been experiencing severe bouts of diarrhoea in the morningsAt first I put it down to my change in routine And adjusting to my course But recently It's been getting worse I get like clockwork every morning But not for the rest of the dayOn Sunday night I woke up and threw up a few timesSo just to be sure I took yesterday off I got up this morning Planning to go in But I had too pretty bad bouts in quick succession So I made an executive decisionAnd decided to stay at home I did speak to my doctor last weekAnd he said to keep an eye on itAnd notice when I am getting itAnd when I don't Over the weekend I didn't have any diarrhoea at allBut come Monday morning It came back I'm starting to think that it might be nerves or anxiety I don't actually feel stressed But I guess it could be bubbling away under the surface Starting this course was a huge step And I think it's perfectly natural to feel nerves and anticipationBut I thought four weeks in I would feel a bit more settled Of course In saying that I am still adjusting And finding my feet But I definitely believe that emotional stresses can cause physical reactions I rang my doctor today And the receptionist told me that I couldn't be seen She said I could go in only if it was an emergency I told her I needed a cert for schoolBut she said that wasn't an emergency Nice So I'll have to wait until Friday to get a sick cert It's nice to have a couple of days off But I would much rather be in school As I don't want to miss out Because I am struggling to keep up as it is 
Apart from that I am doing welllI feel good I feel healthy and strong Not weak or delicate like I used toI'm loving my course Two new girls started this weekBut I haven't met them yetWhich is more anxiety meeting new people The girls on my course have been just lovely Texting me to check on meAnd just being good friends I am going to go in to tomorrow regardless Because I know the longer I leave it The harder it will be to get back in to a routine 
Anyway Just a quick post today Thanks for reading And see you on the next post....