Saturday

I started out the weekend with a riding lesson this morning I was back on PrincessBut I had a new instructor A Scottish girl called Roisin Who was lovelyStraight away I was having problems getting Princess started She was walking at her own leisurely pace And was paying very little attention to the fact that I was kicking her over and over Roisin said that I looked nervous And I felt itSo I'm sure the horse felt it tooI think I am not kicking hard enoughI think I'm kicking strongly But it's probably only a tap to the horse Eventually I got her trotting Although she was pre-empting my directions all the time Roisin wanted to work on my position and balance So after trotting for a while We walked and trotted with my feet out of the stirrups The key thing was to relax my legs And let them hang Which in turn would help my balance Then we trotted standing upAnd sitting down slowly The she told me to drop the reigns completely I thought she was joking At first But she wasn't I felt really nervous to do this Especially in trot First Roisin told me to lift one hand And then the other I was doing it!Trotting with no hands It was a real confidence boost Roisin said that at the start of the lesson I looked stressed and worried But by the end of it I felt a lot more comfortable I did a full hour lesson todayAnd am now wrecked It was great though I thoroughly enjoyed it And Roisin told me that we can go down to the beach to ride some dayThat would be so awesome I've always wanted to ride a horse on a beach I've always thought it looks so elegant and beautiful So that's something to look forward to In other news Life is going pretty well at the moment I feel good Mood is stable I feel steady in myself I feel like I am enjoying rather than enduring itLife is to be enjoyed I know that no one is deliriously happy all the time Happiness is not a constant thing But it is definitely possible to have moments And those moments are enough to keep me going 
That's all for today folks If there is any topic you would like to see written about Do let me know I feel like I am writing less and less about my ED addictionI guess now I am living my life Rather than spectating And letting life pass me by I feel like I am actively participating in my own life now And that is so great I feel hopefulI feel positive I feel alive....