I know it’s a touchy subject but I wanted to give my personal experience to maybe help some one else.
I’m a single mom of my 3 year old little boy. I found my self fancying a work colleague so thought why not give it a go. We did and we were only together a month or so. He just wasn’t the guy I thought he was not the guy I usually go for.
Two weeks after splitting up I found myself feeling ill. I thought it was the antibiotics I was on so stopped taking them.
To my surprise after another week I was still feeling shocking had no energy and was so tired.
I know instantly I was pregnant.
The dread of being a single my to two kids filled me.
I couldn’t do it.
I’d have to give up work and sacrifice time with my growing son for a baby I really didn’t want. I had moved into a smaller house and financially couldn’t do it.
I know it’s my fault for it happening and I honestly felt like a teenager who had gone off the rails.
As soon as I found out I told the dad. He wanted me to keep it and kept trying to make me feel bad and persuade me to keep it. I really wish I had never told him.
A week later I had my appointment at the hospital which lasted about 2 hours. Bloods done, weight height and STD check. I got to choose the method of termination. The best choice I thought was suction.
I was offered a counselor but this ‘baby’ didn’t feel like mine it felt like his and nothing to do with me. I just felt ill.
The day before I had to take 4 antibiotics just incase of infection after the mini operation.
A week and a bit later it was the day to go in. I was up from 6 am sorting things for my son to go to nursery and spend the night with his daddy. I got to the ward at 10 past 7 where me and 3 other ladies waited for about an hour as the nurses had to find beds.
Meanwhile the doctor saw us and the anesthetist. The anesthetist gave me the option of sedation which was quicker recovery then being put to sleep.
I chose this as I’d been put to sleep before and didn’t like the after feeling.
My Personal Experience Of Abortion
At 9am I was taken to a bed, put on a gown and some hospital nickers. I had to put 3 tablets under my bottom lip to dissolve for half an hour. These helped start my uterus contract which gave me stomach cramps.
I refused pain killers because it was me doing a bad thing, why should I be pain free?
An hour later I was taken to theater where I was sedated.
The staff were all amazing.
The next thing I knew I was awake feeling like nothing had happened. I was in recovery for ten minutes then taken to the ward again. I was given toast and a drink as I hadn’t eaten in over 12 hours. I had to take 5 antibiotics before I left and was free to go home after an hour.
I know it sounds strange but it was a great experience because the staff cared and they made sure it was the right decision for me before I took the first medication.
Please don’t judge me I had my reasons just like everyone else does. I was only 7+6 the day when I had the termination.
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