Judgment

I hit a really low point yesterdayYesterday's post was written out of a place of having to defend myself I felt attacked by the anonymous comments who told me to 'Grow up' and 'Get a job'And because my confidence is on the low side I didn't have the ability to see these what these comments wereAn faceless, nameless, anonymous commenterSomeone who reads my blogBut doesn't approve of my lifestyle They obviously have a bee in their Bonnet about my not working And have been very vocal about that lately 
I actually thought about deleting my blog and leaving blogger yesterday That's how bad I felt I spoke to various members of my family And consensus was to ignore said commentsRead and deleteThey pointed out that I don't know these people And their opinions shouldn't matterMuch like what a lot of you wrote on the comments section tooI'm not leaving though There may be negatives to writing this blogBut there are more positives So I will continue to blogAnd continue to fight for recoveryYou also suggested that I disable anonymous comments I would do this only that there are quite a few readers who comment under anonymous but who always leave their names So I don't want to do that Also I want to get to a place where I can read these comments and not give them a second thoughtSo I will leave it as it is for now
The thing is I felt judged yesterday I felt like my whole life was being torn apart I know I put myself out there So I should expect such judgment It's amazing how someone can get up on their high horse and cast judgment on others I mean My life is not perfect I do the best I can I am struggling at the moment Big time But I am trying my level best to get back on track If there is one thing I don't do Is judge others You may smoke 40 cigarettes a dayYou may drink your weight in wineYou may smoke a joint from time to timeOr maybe every day You may never donate to charity Or only shower once a weekYou may have stolen in your time Or not paid a parking fine Whatever it is I am not here to judge youYour life is your life And you can do with it as you please Let those with out sin cast the first stone and all that 
So go ahead anonymous Judge meJudge me for all your worth I know I'm a good personI bet if you were dealing with what I am dealing with You wouldn't be perfect eitherI put myself out there to help others And myself If putting others down is what does it for you Then go ahead I've dealt with worse than you in my lifeFar far worse In the words of One Direction'Nobody can drag me down'
Ha Can't believe I just quoted One Direction!I don't even like them!Can you tell I'm feeling better today....