Injury

I was off work for a few days last weekAs the center was quiet and I wasn't neededHoweverGeorgina rang me on Wednesday And asked if I could do the house keeping shift the following dayI jumped at the chance As I need the hours And would be glad of the money So I arrived in to work for 10amPrepared for a full day of hard work I got straight in it Stripping beds Changing sheets Replenishing towels I was on my own But Georgina was up and down to me I was following her out of one of the rooms And I was kind of trailing my fingers on the door When the door closedAnd it closed on my thumb These are not any ordinary doors They are big heavy fire doors That close themselves So the door closed on my left thumbI felt the painMy thumb being utterly squashed Georgina was ahead of me But I couldn't get the words out To tell her I was stuckBut fair play to her When she saw the look on my face She realised what had happened She had to come around me To open the door and release my thumb It was only seconds But it felt like an eternity I looked at my thumbIt was all squashed and twisted looking Georgina immediately told me to hold it under cold water While she ran and got ice I couldn't really think straight I think I was in a bit of shock Another worker and the chef came up to me Which was nice of them I headed down to the dining roomTo drink a cup of sugary teaAnd to sit and hold the ice to my poor thumbAfter sitting for a while I went over to the other centre Where a very kind woman called Denise coveted my thumb in arnica To help prevent bruising But stillMy thumb was turning black as we watched itTo be safe Denise rang the doctor And they told her to send me over I went and collected my bag And we drive over Even though it was only down the road In the mean time I rang my mam Who happened to be shopping in town So she made her way over to me I wasn't waiting long in the doctors It wasn't my usual doctor But it was Nice Woman Doctor So that was good She examined my thumbAsked me to give a thumbs upWhich I couldn't really do I also couldn't really bend itShe said there was 40% chance that the bone was broken And said if it got any worse To go into casualty So she gave me a letter to give radiology And told me to go home And keep an eye on it 
So having barely worked a couple of hours I was heading home for the rest of the day I felt really pissed offAs I felt I was letting people down But hey What could I do?I would have been no addition to them in work And I could have further injured myself So I took it easy for the set of the day My thumb was sore But it was pain I could bearSo I was pretty sure that it wasn't brokenAnd I was back in work yesterday And today The season is kind of winding down now. And we are not as busy I love being in work on a Friday As I get to meet everyone checking inAnd it's easier to remember faces and names At least I find easier There are a lovely bunch staying with us this week Some real characters And this is what I love about my job I get to meet a whole range of different people From tiny tots to the elderlyDisabled people Mentally unwell people From all over And from all walks of lifeIt really opens my mind And reminds me that there is a whole wide world out there And most of all It takes me away from myself From ruminating Procrastinating From obsessing about one thing or another I am so busy at work That I don't get a chance to worry over my own stuff Which is great I really love my job thoughI love everything about it My co workers My manager The guests Everyone is so lovely It's like this job was made for me It's busy But not stressful It's demanding emotionally But I can handle that And am able to leave work at work when I leave Most of the time anyway I am just so grateful that Georgina gave me a chance Because that's exactly what I needed Someone to see past the illness The addiction The struggles I have And give me a chance to grow and blossom and flourish Georgina is an incredible lady So passionAte about her work And that runs off on me I am definitely learning a lot from her In lots of areas How to deal with peopleSticky situations How to multitask How to work smarter instead of harder And my work is not just a job We provide holidays for people who might not ordinarily get one We help financially And we are there to chat and to listen It runs like a hotel But it's not really a hotel It's a house And everyone is welcome I really feel privileged that I get to help a family or a group enjoy their holiday I love chatting to the guests And probably do it a bit too much But look If it helps themI am more than happy to sit and listen Some people just want someone to talk to And often times it's easier to speak to someone whose not directly involved in the situation So yesI  am happy out at the moment Before I know it The summer will be over And do will my job I will really miss it though Even though Georgina said if anything came upShe would keep me in mind So hopefully something will
I need to tell you I feel in a really good place at the moment Life couldn't be better Of course I get days when I don't want to get out of bed When everything I try on makes me look huge When I just want to sit and cry my eyes outBut everyone gets these days I am not special I am human And as humans we have bad days And that's perfectly okIt's normal Show me a person who never has a bad day And I will eat my own foot My happiness at the moment is not connected to my weight Or the fact I am self medicating It's an inner happiness That comes from feeling good about myself From work hard Both at my job And at my recovery I know I'm lucky I have a strong family around meSome amazing friends and co workers I couldn't ask for moreI remember from AAThere are 12 promises And one of them is that you will find a life beyond your wildest dreamsIt's not about money Or material gains It's about living a real and authentic life From opening my heart and my mind From feeding myself good food From not weighing myself From being the best person I can be So today I urge you For one day Let go of your vice See what life is like without it I promise you The feeling of contentment I have Is better than any drugAny number on a scale It's a feeling that I am okMore than ok That I'm going to make it Despite everything I have been through I still want to live my life I still want to carry onYou can't ask for more than that...