I went to the Sleep Center in Kalispell on Tuesday to be accessed for my sleepwalking. First of all, I am not fond of the doctor I saw but, he set me up for a sleep study to see how my sleeping is.
One problem: I sleep in the morning hours. I have never been able to wake up and stay awake on a “normal schedule” like “normal people” do. I have tried to switch to a daytime wake schedule and I am like a zombie and become very depressed.
Left to my own devices, I fall asleep between 4 a.m. and 7 a.m. and wake up between Noon and 3 p.m.
So, this week I have had to have a friend call and wake me up at 6 a.m. every morning. I have to stay awake all day, with no naps, and go to bed at 11 p.m., per the doctors orders, so I can do this sleep test.
I AM EXHAUSTED!
My brain says “I want this sleep test”. My body says “WTF ARE YOU DOING?” I still, even while exhausted, can not fall asleep until 1 or 2 a.m. SO, not only am I not on my schedule, but now I am sleep deprived.
Maybe I just need to ask Dr. Dickhead about keeping a sleep log for him for a month using an app on my phone, called Sleepbot, and just admit that I have Delayed Sleep Phase Disorder.
People keep saying, “OH! You can switch your sleep schedule if you try hard enough.” No. No I can’t! I have TRIED several times. I end up exhausted and end up having no sleep schedule at all and end up depressed.
In the end, I sleep weird crazy hours and times and end up right back on my bodies sleep schedule by the end of the whole thing.
This week, people really piss me off. Lack of sleep isn’t helping and being exhausted to the point that I want to cry about everything isn’t helping either!
There isn’t enough coffee, alcohol and drugs in the world to make me want to sleep on this schedule. It’s not like I have a “real job” and need to get on a schedule. Hell, even when I worked, I worked nightshift.
I am just a night owl. I function better at night. Even being awake at 6 a.m. my brain isn’t function before noon! I miss sleep and just want to cry!
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